Death.... What's your choice?

Hmm... i promise after this post the next post will be a little more uplifting? :) When i'm alone at times, i wonder what's the kind of death (if i have a choice) i could imagine myself going through... At this point... i am not depressed and i don't wish to die.

I thought of a few...
i) Drowning... prob the most painful form of death... Imagine holding ur breath... and when you can't take it anymore... take in water through ur nose... OUCH! I hate this form of death... Please don't let me die like that?

ii) Cancer... painful too! especially the last few stages.. with effects of morphine, chemo... sucky feeling... umcomfy death...

iii) Kidney failure... i hate needles.. with kidney failure... i might need to go to a dialysis centre 2x a week to clean my blood.... and my veins will be really really big....but i really hate needles... i really can't take it...

iv) Dying in ur sleep... i don't know what happens during this time... but... it seems the most comfortable... But people die like this will prob scare the person sleeping next to them.... hmm... that's not good..

Ok.. the list can go on... but point is... every death is painful... why? :( But it's not death i fear... but dying... it's not my funeral i worry but the people i leave behind... It's not how i look after i die that worries me, but who i meet after i die and where i am.
Even one of the holiest men Pope JP underwent so much pain before he died... what about me? :( God gave me many gifts... would dying as easily as possible be one of them? I can only pray and hope.... But even so.. pray for me that when i do face that... i can cope with it....