My other life....

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2008-06-16T23:59:00.003+08:00

After a few afternoons of shopping for a maid, dan and i decided on hiring a maid from myanmar... surprisingly most of them are university qualified!!! Hmm... though i don't know what's the standard of the education system in myanmar, it's strange at times to have a graduate to work as a maid... hmm... it's like sometimes it doesn't make sense to have a graduate to earn lesser than someone who doesn't have a degree....
So... what's the use of studying? Unless of course one is interested in the academic path, would one really need so much of education? Does education make one's value go down? Would i want my girl to study so hard? Hmm... if between IQ and EQ, i hope my girl would have the latter than the former.
The pressures of giving the child a headstart is constantly around.... especially with friends who read up so much.... About the right-brain/left brain and all the other enrichment courses.... would i fall into that category? that's what i am scared of.
I came from an only child background.... which means i got the attention and also the over-shelteredness from the 'world'.... sometimes that would mean my parents would decide things for me and my independence was probably developed in the later stages...
Now as i become a parent to my kid... i hope i would learn to let go.... would i? Oh well... whatever it is... I'm sure with the kid along, i would learn new lessons... and sometimes the humbling thing is i won't be the teacher... but her... I pray that i would though allow her to...

Counting down....

2008-06-16T13:56:00.002+08:00

This week would be week 38 for Chappy..... Just went for dinner with daniel last night at My Humble House... Had a special tasting menu... It's sorta like a little couple time before chappy comes out. So... if by sat, chappy doesn't come out... we'll be going for another dinner on Sunday again... just to have some time together... So hopefully she doesn't come out till much later. :P
Well, other than that, my legs look like elephant feet.... bad... ugly... it's just terrible lah... Sigh... all the water retention isn't improving...
Going to see my doc tomorrow... wonder how heavy is she now... :D That's the only exciting thing to learn... how heavy is she. :D At least it's good to know that she's passed the 3kg mark... which is what i wanted her to be. :D
Well, that aside... almost all her stuff is all settled... and i am quite proud of that. :D Very good. :D Now just waiting for her to settle in...
Been reading a few books... 3 in fact.... simultaneously....
1. Signing to baby
2. Tipping Point
3. Secrets frm the Baby Whisperer
QUite fun... signing to baby teaches mothers sign languages to teach to the kiddo so that they could sign to them before speech comes into picture. Tipping point is a little like a psychology book... about how small things make a big difference.... Secrets from the baby whisperer just give tips and hints on how to look after the newborn... so yea... quite fun. :D
Okay... off to a maid agency to see if there's any maid we should hire. :D

Updates Updates Updates....

2008-06-11T20:58:00.002+08:00

Just when i thought i got the hang of blogging again, i got lazy and slacked again... haha... Oh well, so a quick update...
Chappy is 37 weeks as of tuesday... doc says she's ready to meet the world now... but we're hoping to keep her in as long as possible cuz it would mean that a) i have a longer break and have my maternity would be longer as well... b) she would have lesser chance of jaundice :)
That aside, she's currently weighing abt 3 kg... so longer inside me, she will be heavier and she would be easier to carry later. ;) But being so big, i am a little worried about her coming out... oh well... we'll see..
Managed to get a massage lady to come for 10 days.... $50 a session... highly recommended by one of the nurses from my gyn clinic... she would massage me and massage and bathe my girl as well... Which seems good. Esp when i don't have any confinement lady. So it would help me settle that part... Sigh.. but that's a good $500 for 10 days... Oh well... no choice... if there's any consolation, $50 is the market rate and normally it's without baby bath and massage. So i guess i should be happy.
Looked for a maid today... With daniel... Wow nowadays maids are damn expensive and also very demanding... despite the horror stories of maids... but thinking of value of money... Losing my privacy though.. but no choice... Currently having a part timer will cost me $320 per month... that's only 2x a week with 8 hrs.... If i engage this maid, it will cost me $520... Oh well, Okies... it can be cheaper like $470.... but this maid i saw has 8 years of experience in singapore... which means cooking and looking after infants would be of no problem for her. And communication is not a problem.. since she's familiar with the surroundings.. :D
Other than that... baby's room is done... just worried i might have forgotten some stuff... Oh well, besides that, everything is going well... just keeping fingers crossed and waiting for her arrival.. :D

A rested weekend...

2008-04-28T18:03:00.000+08:00

Weekends are always a great way to chill.... This weekend is no exception. I always like weekends... in fact... to think of it, Dan and I have been spending loads of quality time together. Loads... Which is good. Even if it's just a normal weekday night.... 9pm onwards is completely no work but just us either watching movies in our entertainment room (which was how we spent Sunday) or just chilling... Tonight we're going to catch Harold and Kumar... :) Quite looking forward to it.... Probably I would go for a swim when i reach home, if i am not too tired. :)

My backache's getting bad especially when sleeping.... Haha... was quite amused when Dan told me why it was painful, upper pain - due to enlargement of boobs, lower pain - due to the baby... SO yeah... the whole back's a pain... and water retention - due to lack of water... how ironic. Women who don't drink enough water get water retention since the body has to store water...
Anyway, was just so amused that my husband can tell me what is happening to my body... which shows his commitment to the whole process... Well done! :D This Sunday, would be our first lesson with the preparation course for the labour and all.... Hmm... Dan just reminded me that after everything is over... it's about the same time when i pop. Now i am anxious.... I don't know if I'm exactly up for it.. but I guess we got no choice... Whether or not we're ready... she's still coming out...
In a way i am looking forward to seeing her.. but then again, i am worried about the restless nights and all... :( Sigh.... which reminds me, Chappy's room (Chappy is a nick for our girl) is not ready!!!!!

That aside, saturday was great... with Art therapy.. :D Will post the pictures i've been drawing soon... :D Not that i am an artist... far from it... but it's a cool thing to blog/journal how i have been progressing... :D

Bucket List (1)

2008-04-21T22:48:00.002+08:00

Haven't really decided what we are going to have in dan and my bucket list.... but.... we thought of 2 things already....

1. Go for dancing classes (after the baby is born) :D
2. Start own business (know what to do.. but will blog about it at a later time) *so exciting* :D

We'll add on and continue later.... for now at least i'm glad we got something to do. :D

Shopping on Sunday...

2008-04-21T22:42:00.002+08:00

Dan and i went to get some baby stuff yesterday..... We got the baby car seat, baby cot (that's the killer item cuz it can be used as a bed in future), daily essentials like bottles and all..... so.... Guess how much we spent?????

P.S. This is only for SOME of the items.... Shopping for the baby will be continued next week.....

The Bucket List...

2008-04-14T12:27:00.002+08:00

Recently, dan and i caught the show - the bucket list... boy did it bring buckets of tears man... A truly meaningful and interesting movie... i highly recommend it, if not for the show, for the main actors - Jack Nicholson and Morgan Freeman..... It's a must watch i tell you... Basically, about two men who developed a beautiful friendship in the last few months of their lives... Both dying from cancer, they decided to come up with a bucket list and get those things done. (If by now you still don't know what's it, it's a list of things you do before u kick the bucket.) After watching this show, i wanted to come up with my own bucket list... :) but have not exactly decided what should be on it yet....

Life's very unpredictable... many have said and heard this phrase before... recently, i've the misfortune of hearing many of my friends' loved ones' passing... Just as recent as this morning, when I heard my friend's father passed away.... she's the same age as me, only child... and hmm... i reckon the father to be the same age as mine too...
While i understand that the angel of death knocks on each one of our doors at the unexpected times of our lives... question now is would i want to know what time would that be. If it is unexpected, I guess i would want to leave it as unexpected.... Yet to experience the phase of dying without knowing when you would die makes it such a b***h.
Would people come to my funeral? What would they say about me in my funeral? Who would remember my life when i am alive? Who would say i made a difference - good hopefully...

Whatever it is, i think God knows that at this very point, i am not ready to meet him, despite the many warnings that we should be ready all the time.... But i think he knows that I have yet to find out my purpose of him making me, and to finish certain tasks he has assigned me to... and i hope he would give me more time here on earth to enjoy his other gifts.... That's my birthday wish.... and my prayer each day.... to live life and breathe....
Okay... maybe life isn't that bad afterall.......

House Deco....

2008-04-12T16:18:00.001+08:00

Here's how our place looks like.... Well some parts of it...

The main hall.... No prizes for guessing what theme our house had.... But now with our baby girl coming... We've got requests for the soccer table and pool table..... Just wait....

A big hall, so we divided the area and have a section to chill and relax... that also leads on to the entertainment room...The place where we spent hours watching movies, play Wii and just to chill...

Every house needs an altar.... well, mine's not so conventional but still works....

A Just Because Gift.....

2008-04-12T16:13:00.002+08:00

Dan surprised me today with a Just-Because gift....

Don't know what's the reason... but shan't ask. :) Whatever it is.... :) Thank you baby....

The phrase we engraved in our wedding bands... after watching "Click".

Weekend full of dinners....

2008-04-12T13:45:00.003+08:00

Tonight dan and i are going to an engagement party... how sweet.... :) Looks like tonight's topic would be all on questions like "how he proposed", "did you expect it?", and the million-dollar question "how big is the ring?"
It's nice to see how couples getting married and all... :) Proposal... unique experience... I remembered my proposal(s) from dan... He first proposed to me on 30th December, 2005... haha... Well, that's the year we broke up and had loads of hurdle to overcome. We were getting ready for our New Year Eve's party the next day, and he brought me to Great World City.... He played the music i wanted to walk into for our wedding and did a "Stepmum" Proposal.... For those who didn't watch stepmum... it's the one when the guy gives the lady a ring box with a spool of thread in it, got the lady to close her eyes, slips the ring into the thread, ties a knot in her ring finger and slides the ring down... :) And dan's proposal line, "Will u wanna take the bus ride with me forever?"
Well... smooth huh? That's his first attempt, a year after we ROM-ed in 2007, he proposed again.... well... cuz i asked for it. A surprise proposal.. :D And a surprise it was. It was over dinner and he passed me a stack of envelopes. Think the idea is similar to Love Actually, but i think this would be his editted version. So quite original... The stack of postcards started with the first postcard i gave him. Then with each card that comes along, there would be a small little note which forms a poem.... So if the phrase was "through this whole time" the next postcard would show a picture full of clocks... "there were moments when i made ur hair stand on ends" (and the postcard that follows would be a fella with his hair standing....
U get the idea... that really moved me and made me cry... :D It's moments like these that amazes me how romantic this nerd-looking fella can get.... hahah.. A for effort.. :D
But our nerd-looking fella is still very practical... Recently i asked if i should upgrade my diamond... he said it's cheaper to work on getting me a pair of magnifying glasses to wear instead... How smart.
Oh well, prob would put up photos soon of tonight's dinner and all.. :D

A little late but.... better than never.. :D

2008-04-08T23:23:00.001+08:00

Here's some sneaks to my 0707 wedding.. :D

My baby loves me.... :D

2008-04-07T20:20:00.004+08:00

Recently, we had a conversation with a guy friend... and we talked about the differences in expressing love for both male and female. :) VERY different... when men, or so i think, consider the effort they put in for the simplest thing... women, so i think again, look at the result... or how the 'surprise' effect or whatever....
AGAIN, it's MY unerstanding...

Well, my baby loves me... i know he does... he doesn't text me in the day out of the blues to tell me he misses me or loves me nor does he spring on sudden surprises for me (well... still hoping), nor does he send me flowers for no rhyme or reason.... u get the idea.... the 'usual' things.. BUT he loves me... and i appreciate his effort...

Cuz he...
1) massages my legs almost every night cuz of my water retention
2) gives up nights with his friends or networking so he could spend time with me
3) 'burdens' himself with the worries and stress of supporting the household so i don't need to do it
4) settles the payments and bills and all so well that i don't even know what needs to be paid for
5) scringes on himself so i get the finer things
6) does the laundry and drying of clothes so that i don't need to bother with it cuz of my pregnancy
7) sends me to the docs and signs us up for maternity classes so i know what to expect for pregnancy
8) deals with my in-laws, esp in times of misunderstanding, so that i don't get affected
9) carries my stuff without asking, cuz he thinks it's too heavy for me
10) entertains me with all the stuff i wanna do, even if he doesn't like it, so that i won't feel bored...

And the list goes on.... but over all and above... he loves me.... :) I know.... and his definition of love "Lots of voluntary action".... how sweet can he be... :D

Wow... it's been a year...

2008-04-03T22:27:00.002+08:00

It's been a year since the last time i posted on my blog... can't believe how time flew...
Dan and i are finally happily married... it's been almost 9 months... hmm.. wow... and in about 3 months time, we'll be 1 year old together... and expecting our first kid... Yes yes... u read it right, we are expecting our first child now.... I'm about 28 weeks long already... :) And it's a girl... Name wise we've not decided yet... we are thinking of either Audrey or Kimberly.... Either way we'll just wait and see for the little princess to be out before deciding...

While this could be an exciting part of our lives... sometimes it makes me worry that now dan and i will have little couple time together... but i guess we'll prob enjoy it when we grow old and our kids get married...
Speaking of marriage.... just found out one of dan's friends proposed... one of our friends broke up after engagement and one's married not for love.... Hmmm..... all sides of the coin.... I'm just glad to be simple at times.... to be with dan... and yeah he may not be the richest, smartest or even the best looking.... he loves me the mostest.... and not all the time do u find a mutual thing.... but hey i love him just as much too! :D Yes there are times when we feel really frustrated with each other... but... i guess.... as what warren buffet said... Success is when people you want to be loved by, loves you. :D

So... what's our value?

2007-03-21T10:38:00.000+08:00

These few days as I had some quiet time to reflect and ponder, i start to think... why is everyone unique? Best thing is i subscribe to the thinking that no one is indispensible... so why would anyone be unique? Or important? So, what's our value in our loved ones lives at least? Or maybe by the company you put in so much effort in?

Take for instance, you work your ass off for your job... to make a living... or make a difference.. or make a statement... whatever... So what if you leave? The sad thing is nothing... someone will just come in, learn the ropes and pick off from where you left...

Another example, you argue with your loved ones (be in bf, husband, family, friends).... you are upset about it.. maybe... but then... so what? We continue to go out with other people, continue to laugh with other people, continue to enjoy ourselves with other people... you get the gist... point is.... So what? We still do what we want with or without that argument... and just handle it when/if we need to...

This is not a narcisstic post... it's not about being 'important' to anyone's lives even... It's what difference does it make even if i am (or you are) not in that person's/people's/organisation's lives? Sad truth is... maybe there is a difference... but without the person's presence... that difference would still be manageable... Then... what's our value in the organisation or people or person's lives? We can continue working hard at making a difference... but would it be valued?

Then again, another school of thought is ... at the end, would how much the person values you determine how much of difference you want to make? That i guess is left only to be answered by the individual....

An entry of questions... and my attempts to answer....

2007-03-18T23:25:00.000+08:00

I may be wrong... but cynism is working on me today... so... skip this entry if you want to. But it's a short entry of a few questions...

Why do we go to church every sunday? would people still go to church if it's not needed?
Maybe because we are told to do so.... And no.... because we're told there's no need to do so..

Why are other denominations of christianity have people who are able to perform miracles? Shouldn't it just be in the catholic church?
Maybe it's because it takes more than religion for God to decide who he chooses to perform his miracles on or through...

What do people mean by christian unity?
I think it's not that everyone believe in the same things... I don't think people of the other denominations will accept each other's teachings... But it means to put down each other differences based on pride and belief... And to embrace each other's similarities

Why didn't God make everyone look alike so that everyone can see the inner beauty of anyone better?
Maybe it's because it's tougher to find the inner beauty of that person he made that's why that person is all the more unique and special...

Why does God choose some to be born christians and other of another religion?
Maybe because he wanted us to understand him through other ways which makes us feel... comfortable....

Why did Jesus die from the tools he has been playing since young? (Afterall he was a carpenter!)
Maybe it's to show that while we may be masters of some things, we could end up the slave of them... But thing is, would we want to die for them or die in them?

Whatever it is... these may not be great answers... but at least it helps me understand what i believe better... and it's from me.... so it's original.. I'm proud of myself... Well done michelle!

Mel... this is for u.... Cheer up girl!!! :)

2007-03-18T22:05:00.000+08:00

Just had a talk with a girlfriend... she was upset with her husband and her inlaws... and i dont blame her for it... cuz they made her cry and since this is my blog... i'm going to say.... GO TO H**L to them for her.... :)

Guys.... Why can't you understand that just because you stayed with your parents for your whole life, your parents can take your shit, doesn't mean your parents will be able to take your wife's? Why can't you guys understand that just because it's easier for you to share your bed with your wife, it's not the same for the lady to share the same roof as your parents? Why can't you guys understand that just because they are still your parents, you now are living a new life with another person and the main person should be your wife and not your parents? Why can't you all understand that just because they are 'used' to their parents' nagging, it doesn't mean that the wife can and would? Why can't you guys just stand up for their wives? Why can't you guys just realise that different people have different sensitivity? That even if you can take your mother with a pinch of salt, the wife has a different threshold? (Like excuse me... your wife doesn't need to do so at home!) Why can't the guys understand that sometimes the best gift is to tell their parents that certain things could be said or shouldn't be said? Why can't the guys have enough balls to defend the wives? Why can't the guys just offer other forms of comfort instead of just say things like "Take it with pinch of salt, one ear in one ear out"? Why can't the guys not able to commit to their wives this way?

And finally guys, don't come and give the bull that "if you love me, you should do this for me".... Easy for you to say... You aren't at the receiving end.... you are not the one who's hurting inside, or feeling terrible inside, or being 'insulted' or being 'advised'. you're still the 'darling' in ur mother's eyes.... So... Don't tell your wife that you are pressured and all... excuses! And you don't think women can't do anything if they didn't care about ur stupid face... They can don't go for your family gatherings... like they care! So for once guys... Just FEEL what it is like for your wife!

So Melissa... This is for you.... If the guy really loves you... he will put your feelings into consideration, he will empathise with you and not flare up at you when you are feeling hurt inside... But even if he doesn't... don't give up loving yourself... :) Don't let the bast**ds bring you down.... :0) You go girl.... And one more time for your husband and your in-laws.... GO AND FLY KITE! :o)

Death.... What's your choice?

2007-03-07T01:06:00.000+08:00

Hmm... i promise after this post the next post will be a little more uplifting? :) When i'm alone at times, i wonder what's the kind of death (if i have a choice) i could imagine myself going through... At this point... i am not depressed and i don't wish to die.

I thought of a few...
i) Drowning... prob the most painful form of death... Imagine holding ur breath... and when you can't take it anymore... take in water through ur nose... OUCH! I hate this form of death... Please don't let me die like that?

ii) Cancer... painful too! especially the last few stages.. with effects of morphine, chemo... sucky feeling... umcomfy death...

iii) Kidney failure... i hate needles.. with kidney failure... i might need to go to a dialysis centre 2x a week to clean my blood.... and my veins will be really really big....but i really hate needles... i really can't take it...

iv) Dying in ur sleep... i don't know what happens during this time... but... it seems the most comfortable... But people die like this will prob scare the person sleeping next to them.... hmm... that's not good..

Ok.. the list can go on... but point is... every death is painful... why? :( But it's not death i fear... but dying... it's not my funeral i worry but the people i leave behind... It's not how i look after i die that worries me, but who i meet after i die and where i am.
Even one of the holiest men Pope JP underwent so much pain before he died... what about me? :( God gave me many gifts... would dying as easily as possible be one of them? I can only pray and hope.... But even so.. pray for me that when i do face that... i can cope with it....

What a life....

2007-03-07T00:37:00.000+08:00

Was watching this discovery channel programme... something about volcanic erruptions, more specifically a fictional show on what will happen if Yellowstone errupted. Apparently, the ash ejected would be so great that we won't be able to breathe etc. Yellowstone is huge, has a vast depression, and erupts prob hundreds of thousands years apart... (did u know the last time it errupted was 630oooyears ago?)
Hmm... before i carry on, Sumatra had two encounters with earthquake today... tremors were so bad that it was felt in singapore. Last i know, about 70 people died. Of course, let's not forget the Tsunami, SARS etc etc etc...
As if nature was not scary enough, people are fighting against each other.. from as minor as bad-mouthing to something as radical as terrorism...
Point is... life is very unpredictable... Even with all the equipment science has managed to build to defend us, the same tools can be used against us. There's no way we can stop any of these disasters... and just as mysteriously as how it starts... it stops likewise.... In times like these, God seems to be the best answer one can offer to another... But ironically it could be related to the worst question one can ask... "Why God Why?"
I guess, the best answer is.... These are gifts... lives, friends, nature, relationships, family etc.... The life i lead, the people who love me, the people i love, the things i have are all on loan from God. What right does a borrower have in stating his/her rules? None... But from another angle... what rights has been given in stating these demands? That itself again is a gift...
Can i really prepare myself for the last day i live? I don't know.. i just pray i won't make the wrong choice..

Sights from Chinatown...

2007-02-16T00:04:00.000+08:00

Before i break for Chinese New year, thought i would have one more post...
Daniel and i went to Chinatown today after walking around at Vivo... It was quite cool a weather and we did have fun. Not that we laughed non-stop or appreciated the food and all, but we just were entertained i supposed and enjoyed the walk.. somehow. :) Here's me putting my 'artistic' photography skills in action..

Dried food... now why would people want to eat preserved foods when they can get them fresh?

CNY decorations... so red.... so loud....

Baby puppet lions.... I always thought they were either dragons/tigers.... but like duh... lion dance?!?!?

Dan's got a new shirt....

To me, all bak gua tastes the same... but dan thinks this is the best.... Give him this with wine... he'll prob be in heaven

Thought this shot was nice...

Whatever it means.... Happy Chinese New Year and wishing everyone a great pig year ahead!

Our Valentine... (the company)

2007-02-15T18:53:00.000+08:00

And what's having good food without good company? I always enjoyed being with Daniel... Even if i may be feeling really bored with the company... and trust me, it does happen!!! BUT... being with him makes it up. :)

My prince-charming....

Laven and Me... She's just a babe lah!

Our couple shots... :) I think we are beginning to look alike now though... Hmm... My "brother"?

Our Valentine... (the food)

2007-02-15T18:37:00.001+08:00

Well, we didn't really celebrate V-day... BUT we were together. :) We went to Raffles Hotel for dinner... and met some of his friends there.. :)
Oh well, that aside i did have fun yesterday snapping pictures and all.. :)

Sashimi... apparently u're supposed to eat the lightest to the darkest...

Some fried 'ikan billis' thing...

Prawn salad with roe...

Beef... but because i am now cutting on red meat.. i only took 2...

And also... some eggplant with seafood thing...

Chilling on a Sat....

2007-02-11T17:36:00.000+08:00

Last night, we met up with William and Jamie for dinner and drinks. Will is our card designer... so yeah... thanks will again!
Anyway, it was fun... one of those times when you leave a gathering feeling all good and happy? :) laughed a bit, talked a bit and just bum around at the Red Cellar... at Stamford Court. :)

Jamie & me.... She must have been really high.....

Our two drunkard friends....

My drunkard partner....

Has anyone seen this before? It's a alcoholic drink.... with a range of 75% -85 % alcohol.... this is the most lethal with 85% alcohol... the other 2 are red and green... apparently, if you drink too much of it, legend has it that you will hallucinate and see a fairy...

I got a pressie!!!!

2007-02-11T17:23:00.000+08:00

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Thanks baby for the gift though.... :)

Our new place.... in real...

2007-02-11T17:15:00.000+08:00

I happened to pass by our commonwealth place yesterday and since i had my digi-cam with me, i decided to take some pictures... Hmm... I didn't realise that they actually painted the blocks to a similar tone to the MRT station. Oh well, but besides that, it actually does look quite condo-like. :) okies... now i can't wait to shift in!

That's our block... Just count 2 stories down..... Hmm.. if i am not wrong it should be the one facing the road....

Our OTHER Splurge...

2007-02-06T18:24:00.000+08:00

Ok... i did say that daniel and i did invest in another apartment.... I FINALLY know what is the name of the project - The Axis!
Haha... oh well, though it is just a studio apartment, had to fork out $20k cash for this. Which i have to say got some help from Mummy... Paid most of it... about $14k? but mummy still need to help out.. hehe... Oh well, but now i am officially broke! Fortunately they do not require us to pay the bank loans now. Which is really why i take up the project. Can you imagine if i need to pay the bank the loan i will prob die.
Oh well, last heard from my agent, there's only 2 units left. And my studio is put up for sub sale. I do hope i can sell it asap. So i can get the mula... :P *Keeping fingers crossed* But i have to say this is really a leap of faith. Will i do it again? Maybe.. but err depends on location and price. Like if i am not wrong there's this One North residency... At HV.. BUT thing is, being in those areas, psf is definitely very high. Already for this it costs me $400k plus.... Even more expensive than my other apartment! And it's half the size! haha..
Anyways... here're the pictures in case you don't know which i am talking about....

Daytime artist's impression

Night-time artist's impression

Artist's impression of pool side....

So anyone wanna buy this apt from me? :P

HDB Selection

2007-02-06T18:16:00.000+08:00

Wow what a busy start of the year... but oh well, i did promise in my earlier posting that i will add the pictures...
Here's the flat (model) i took from HDB building the last time we were there to select the apartment...
Okies... it's a 5 room flat... 110sqm... Hmm... Costs us $362k but with the $30k discount from the en-bloc deal, we needed to pay $332k. :) But even with the 30 years loan, we got to pay $1k plus each month... Sigh... Let's just hope that we will be able to sell at a good price if we do sell in future.
Interestingly... the queue number we were given... 0777 HEHE.... Guess it's like we are fated with the number lah! :P

Our future place?

Our number... :P

What a rush!

2007-01-25T00:29:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone... haven't been blogging for quite some time... so here i am back here... :)
Oh well, loads of happenings.. will prob upload the pictures later... but now here's a brief update of what i've been doing...

Work.... Work's busy... phew just finished my masters essay.... geez hate those 4000 words essay.. but no choice.. had a brief look at the new modules.... sigh.. ain't getting easy... :( Oh well, on top of which it doesn't help that now in school my workload is heavier... now I'm teaching P5 and 6... loads of things to do.... 2 classes of 40... Hate the marking.. but in a way it's quite fun and exciting... especially when i get to learn quite a bit of things. :) Enjoying yet procrastinating... :)

Wedding... Been busy with the preparations for the wedding... Geez... didn't realise that there are so many things to do... Interestingly, now there's going to be a wedding almost every month... 2007 is definitely a wedding year. :) Oh well, but that aside... yesterday i just confirmed my evening gown and discussed the wedding cards designs with our friends... who's a designer. :) Thanks William! :) i love the concept and can't wait to see them! One of the church and one for dinner. :)
Well, speaking of gowns, gotta lose weight and am trying this new diet... it really isn't like atkins diet... i'm officially not touching red meat... so it's going to be fish and veg for a good 6 months... Boring but the price of vanity... I hope it works!

Apartments... Dan and I originally had an en-bloc apartment at holland road... :) this 3 room flat... so technically, we are able to choose another apartment in holland area... however, because the place is only ready in 5 years time, they allowed us to select an apartment at Commonwealth's Tanglin Halt... just right in front of the MRT station. So the tall building u see in front of the mrt...that's my new block.. Block 89... That's like a 40 storey high block... and of all levels we chose... we picked the 38th floor... So.... I guess i will now have to invest in a dryer.... And i hope i don't develop a phobia of heights...
That aside... Dan and I also invested in ANOTHER property apartment... a studio at Mandalay Road... TOP in 2009... but hopefully can sell before that... so... these 2 are like the most expensive splurge in my life man....

Concert splurges.... As much as i didn't go for Rain's or Eric Clapton's concert.. i went to Il Divo's concert with Daniel... and they sang Nella Fantasia.. Yeah!!!! :) My walk-in song... hehe heart melt... :) Before that we went to watch My fair Lady... each ticket we spent $150 for each show... This month's quite xiong... but at least it was quite fun. :) daniel paid for the tickets for the My Fair lady's show while i paid the second show. :)

Okies.. that aside... that should be almost everything that's majorly happening to me... :) I will prob just post the pictures later...

Fan of Goong

2006-10-30T00:53:00.000+08:00

Okok... recently i have been having some addictions... This is ridiculous! It's all Daniel's fault... if he were to be in singapore, i will probably not have time finding these new addictions and getting hooked on them. PIG! Hmph!
But anyway, recently i am hooked on the korean drama - Goong: Princess Hours. Superb!!! i like it cuz it had like macham dunno how many love triangles and it makes ur heart cringe and all... was so amazed by the show that i went to buy the whole vcd collection.. Haha what a desperado. Oh well, but i enjoyed it. :) Lovely. Kept watching it over and over again... haha guess what when daniel comes back... guess what will he be doing? :D
anyway, i have to say that the crown prince (Joo Ji-Hoon)... has charisma lah... he grows on you... i don't know.. thought he was really ugly and all... but i guess his role suits him a lot or maybe he brought out the role very well... very cool, contained and slowly opening up.. :) Heart melt. :) Oh well, before my dear daniel gets jealous... i only have eyes for you sweetheart. :)

Say hi to the main cast of Goong... Oh well, heard Goong 2 will be out.. but sigh different cast...

Aren't they cute? Especially the small one.... i hope my kid in future is so cute.. :P

Amazing Race in School

2006-10-26T00:47:00.000+08:00

Had an amazing race in school today... :) Went 6 stations everywhere round singapore... How exciting it was! Had great laughs along the way and all. :) Learnt quite a lot of things... and went many places like the Old Ford Factory... the place where Ford cars were manufactured i guess... Serangoon to see a temple... :) Oh well... i have to say... I enjoyed the bond and friendships made. :)

My team mates and i at our first stop... Old Ford Factory...

Here at Little India to visit the temple and get a garland... Garlands aren't cheap.. The one i am wearing costs $6 and that's the owner... i have to say the jasmine frangrance was very overwhelming and i wasn't sure if i was as happy as him taking this picture...

Stuff online....

2006-10-25T23:36:00.000+08:00

Recently, i got back my addiction on shopping online... sigh... expensive addiction i tell you... but found some good stuff... still deciding whether to get them or not... Argh!!
Oh well here's some of the items.. what u think??? i decided to categorise them into 2 groups... expensive and afforable finds.... So here's the reasonable ones...

A dress i thought i could use for work.... :) ($29.90)

I thought this was really sweet and nice.... :) ($25)

And since i am looking for a working bag... thought this was really simple and smart... ($80)
*i know $80 can be quite ex... but when compared to the really ex ones.... hmm... $80 isn't anything :) Anyway, i am looking for a bag what... either that or i will go to BKK to get one :)

I'm back!!!

2006-10-09T00:49:00.000+08:00

Okies... haven't been blogging for a longgggggggggggggg time.... and honestly, sometimes blogging can be a pain... especially when you gotta make the effort to keep it updated.... it's like gym really...running the first few minutes no problem.. continue running for the next few mins... drag!
Oh well, have loads to update though...
First and foremost.... Dan has just opened a dental clinic at Telok Blangah crescent... so people if you need a dentist.... u know where to go, who to call and what to do. :) The overheads at Raffles is just too high to maintain.. so guess this is a good choice to venture into... Business is ok so far... meeting daily quota so far... so that's good... thank god! Hmm... just need to continue praying. :)
Anyway, i didn't take part in BrideXena afterall... haha gotta go down for some audition... hmm... well... just gotta go down a week earlier to do a shuttle run... which i thought was quite a hassle... so... hmm... too much work for it... so thought i will just pass.. :)
Well well... today went to mass and it was on Marriage. Hmm... an important and sacred gift that humans and society just downplayed and devalued it so much... Argh... can't believe why people need to devalue so many things! Pregnancies, Sex, Virginity, Life.... Why?
Anyway, today the gospel passage is about how when 2 are joined in the eyes of the Lord, a man has to leave his parents and be together with his wife... making them no longer two but 1 body.... God's wisdom... possible... maybe... but in an Asian's context... will children be able to put their spouses above their parents? If so.. then i guess there wouldn't be an in-laws problem in many people...
Fr Arro said that when people marry in church and exchange their vows, they promise to put their partners first over everything... including their children... So that's a challenge i have... and i am sure many people have.. i like what he said.... at the altar, u promise to be the best wife/husband for the other... and not the best teacher... how ironic.... i was thinking in the afternoon that i know my job will be interesting and i fear i might put it above anything.. i mean there's always a choice between job and family.. and sometimes i fear after i get promoted... in future i will give my family a second priority... but today... it's like god telling me... If i want, i can... but the best recipe in enjoying the fullness and richness of life and the gift of marriage and motherhood is really to put Daniel first and being a good wife and mother... :) Okies... tough but i trust everything else will work ... Of course not forgetting God lah... BUt i am just talking about married life ok.
Anyway, i like what it's said.... The best example of love isn't the couple who looks radiant on their wedding day... but the not so radiant-looking ones at their silver or golden anniversary. :) well, dan and i may be trying something new... once a week... switch off phones, contacts to media and all.. and just concentrate on us... talk to each other nothing but each other. Hmm.. tough.. but worth a try... :)
okies.. guess this should be enough for now... SO i should just go to bed... Nites!

The pictures i sent in for Bride Xena

2006-09-24T23:43:00.000+08:00

So here's the pictures i sent in for the competition... Hmmm i am starting to regret now... it's like a running thing rather than a relak.. look pretty thing!!! Argh! Oh well... we'll see.. may never get shortlisted anyway.

How's this couple pic? Maybe i should send this in instead of the other one....

And here's a picture of ME!!!!

My weekend is over?!?!?

2006-09-17T23:56:00.000+08:00

Argh.. why are weekends so short????
Anyway, was quite a weekend i must say... :) Like spending time to chill. :) Never did any work though which is bad.. because my assignment due within this week. :( Arghhhh why did i take masters again?!?!?!
Oh well, watched Nanny McPhee during dinner on sat.. :) Hmm.. it's an old show... or not current one lah...it's a Sound of Music sort of plot in a Harry Potter & Mary Poppins touch.... minus all the music and singing of course. :) But it's an enjoyable show i must say... Should catch it.. it's about this widower having 5 kids who keep driving all their nannies away.. until Nanny MP came and controlled them with a little help of magic... Hmm... there were 5 things nanny MP had to teach them:
1) go to bed and wake up when they are told
2) wear their best clothes when told
3) say their please and thank yous
4) Listen
5) do as you are told
So.... are there just 5 lessons a child needs to learn and the mission of the parent is complete? Hmm.... i have no idea... i will only know when i get to that stage... but i guess what Nanny M Phee said was right... her duty was to teach, whatever the kids did with those lessons was another thing..
Oh well, then it got me thinking.. if dan and i die next time when we have kids... and they are still young... who will look after them? i mean.. if our parents are so old... and we need someone who will teach them right... with these criteria:
1) loves this child like his/her own
2) loves god and is a catholic (yes, religion is impt)
3) bring them to their grandparents..
Hmm.... money isn't a part of the consideration since i know the child will have my inheritance... So... who fits these three criteria??? I can't think of any so far.... hmm... well i've been thinking about this and i have not found a suitable candidate... Hmm... Which makes me wonder, if i just fret for one.... God must be quite busy with everyone's... hmm.. and the thing is... that's the best parents he thought for us... oh well... that's why i am not god. :)
Anyways, i've just taken part in this contest... it's called the Bride Xena Race... Fel told me about it.. haha so we're taking part in it together.. saw it in the papers... :) gotta send in a pic of myself and a couple shot... Hmm, then they will select u.. if u are selected u go for this obstacle race... with 15 other participants. :) ok.. will prob upload them next time..

My gym sessions are paying off!!!

2006-09-14T00:02:00.000+08:00

After more than 1-2 months of sweating it out in the gym, i finally got down to losing some weight!! :D Today somehow, some teachers commented that i have lost weight. hehehe... Which is quite true... shed 1 inch off my waist.. that's like about 2 cm lah.. never look down on even 1 cm ok!!!!
Well well... of course this didn't come easily... the threadmills workouts blah blah. i hate doing it.. but for the price of vanity... no choice.. it could be easier to go to the beauty salons.. but all damn ex... and plus i put on the weight again quite fast... cuz it's just losing water...actually for the amount of money, maybe it's more worth it to go for either mesotherapy or whatever injections..
Oh well, the thing about looking good... do you know that in an affluent country, or in a place where food is in abundance, to be slim is like attaining some form of social status? And the best thing is it's the opposite in poor countries. Hmm.. life would be so much simpler if the two groups have the other group's desires. :) ya right!
Anyway, speaking of looking good... daniel and i are going to take part in one of the bridal competitions.. what Beautiful couple... Now we just need to find a head-to-toe couple picture... Can you believe that for 4 years we've not gotten ourselves one head to toe couple picture?!?!?!?! Oh well... see lah... here's the other photo we sending in... :D

Looking good together right? :D I love my baby... :)

Oh well, now i gotta go back to my work... Got to do my assignment, some Science marks analysis, some Science reshuffling of classes and some template for the staff career development path... ARGH!!!!
Biting the bullet.....

The Kid...

2006-09-07T12:00:00.000+08:00

Watched the show last night on vcd... The Kid... Quite interesting.. though it's quite predictable, and halfway in the show i sorta thought i watched it somewhere before... Hmm.. but anyway, watching Oliver's Twist... which is just Jamie Oliver's Cooking show now... damn hungry ah!!!!
Oh well, back to the show.. I think it reminds me of something... Whether do people do what they wanted to do when they were very very young... I remember i used to play teacher but that's because it's one of the easiest role to role-play and also, it probably was one of the jobs i come in contact with.. But now when i become one... the fun level isn't there leh... Hmm...
I do remember i also played homemaker... hehe... being mother to dolls etc... cooking blah blah... yes yes.. that's the NEXT easiest role to pretend... So... why not... Well, i do wanna be a sucessful person in life... like making big bucks, travel round the world.. blah blah. but i do want to be a successful homemaker too! I wanna look after my kid when he/she comes back from school, cook and do up the house etc etc etc... but that's only possible if the financial situation allows me to do so then.. but till then i still will have to find different ways to work hard and earn more. :(
Oh well, i just hope when family comes, i can give up my career and be with them...

School Holidays........

2006-09-06T11:27:00.000+08:00

School holidays are always fun... most of the time i would be flying off to somewhere... except this time... Boo. :( But anyway, it's a good break from my kids and work... which reminds me that i gotta do quite a few things:
1) Science CA2 analysis
2) Research on Mass Teaching
3) My next paper for the Masters programme..
Sigh... this three is bad enough. Oh well, just another 10 weeks i will having another holidays... and i will be a 1.5 year old teacher... hmm... how exciting.. i can't wait to the next hols!!! I think i should explore further with daniel to go to places other than bangkok... we'll see...
Well, i watched quite a few movies of late... Akeelah and the Bee (Go watch it)... Devil wears Prada (Go watch it too) It's nice... heart-warming... enjoyable. :) We also borrowed the show "The wedding date" last night. Quite nice... It's about this lady had to attend her step-sister's wedding and hired an escort to accompany her to the wedding so that she could make her ex-fiance jealous... of course the typical plot is the two fell in love and blah blah... but what was so romantic was when the guy said "I rather fight with you than to make love with another." And i guess that made love so special... Dan can be irritating and annoying at times... but would i exchange him for another... neh. :)
Oh well, for the last 2 days... there was sad news of the passing of the Crocodile hunter, there's the birth of a boy for Princess Kiko... Hmm... as one country mourns, another celebrates. So weird... I don't know how to describe it... but it can be quite numbing to emotions... But i feel sorry not cuz Steve irwin died... but for his family... his wife and children... Sleeping on an empty bed at night, having to take on the role of both mummy and daddy... growing up with no daddy... having no son to continue this vision of what you believed... I hate that... i just wish the people around me don't die... :(

Assignment... Cleared!

2006-08-22T15:04:00.000+08:00

Yes!!!!! I finally finished my assignment... No i didn't do on Charismatic leader.. i concentrated on Leadership induction. Haha... this is the only few times i practice paraphrasing... Oh well, finally it's cleared and i am very happy. :)
Can finally sleep and rest early.. but tonight i'm going to watch The Break Up! What a break! well, quite excited because i kinda enjoy watching movies now. Yes yes i did not usually watch movies, but now it can be fun and enjoyable doing so. :) Well, maybe daniel makes a good company. :D
Oh well, been running lately... quite happy with my 2.4 timing... From 16 min a few weeks back, it was 14 min + yesterday. :) Hmm... not bad considering now i try to maintain a 10.4 speed for the first 10 minutes... Hehe... quite proud of myself. :D
Anyways, shall prob go for facial if not gym now. :D

Yay!! My baby is back!!!

2006-08-20T22:21:00.000+08:00

Hehehe... Daniel is back.. so i'm no more alone! :D Well well, just had dinner with him, together with some friends. Hehe... I'm just so happy that now he's back. :) So fast it's been 10 days... wow... hmm... which means my deadline would be up soon... and i've not finished my work yet! Yikes... okies.. gotta make this short so i can go back to my work. :(
Well, it's due on Tuesday... so going to pia these few days... then after that dan and i will be catching the show "The Break-up". Critics said its only worth 2 stars... but i like Click... and it was a 2 stars show too! Hmm.. So i shall ignore critics and just enjoy myself. Plus i heard it's quite funny and quite lovey dovey. :) Maybe dan and i will be inspired by somet things in the movie... :D
Hmm... oh yes! I got my first Coach bag!!! :D So here's it! Thanks baby for the gift! It's a very nice gesture. :D Now what should i be looking at next.... :P

Alone by myself (iv)

2006-08-16T20:30:00.000+08:00

Well well... finally it's Wednesday... middle of the week... and guess what i have not gotten started on my assignment yet! Hmm.. that leaves me exactly 1 more week.. But i guess now i have decided on my topic - Charismatic Leadership. :)

Oh well, probably going for a run later... :) Putting on weight is so easy.. but somehow i don't seem to be able to shed it off. Boo.. sigh... but running can be quite rewarding. :)
Was packing my pictures... my colleague's getting all the pics of us when we were young... Check this out!

Hmph!

Oh well, think i was damn adorable lah.... Objectively speaking. :) Okies... was watching Singapore idol... hmm... i can't stand Twohill... it's not him i don't like.. i just don't like hearing someone talk without seeing their eyes... Oh well... enough of that..
Yay!!! Daniel read my blog yesterday.. hehe... but he didn't comment leh *hint-hint* hehe... Oh well... Okies... off to run.. :)

Alone by myself (iii)

2006-08-14T23:32:00.000+08:00

:) Daniel text me this morning to apologise for his behavior last night. :) hmm.. he didn't see my blog so it wasn't because of what i felt. :) thought it was nice of him to do and i am pretty happy because of that. :)
Oh well.. that's that.... today went to gym... haha.. but i still feel fat. Hmm.. i am actually still fat.. tested for my body fats today.. ehehe 28% fat... it's moderate actually.. but it's the higher side of it... so... Gotta start to do something about it. Well, i went gym.. did the machines and went on to do my cardio for 1/2 hour... quite ok lah... i just like the 20 plus min.... the first 20 min on the threadmill was a drag.
Anyway, gotta get started on my assignment pretty soon. Oh well.. maybe tomorrow. :)
Hmm.. in general i am quite happy today... i have to say... tha national day observance ceremony went pretty well, the school's newsletter came in.. and was quite a welcome hit amongst the teachers and kids.. :) so yeah.. i should be happy and grateful for it. :)

Alone by myself (ii)

2006-08-13T23:48:00.000+08:00

It's the third day of being alone...well, i think i have managed to look after myself pretty well... Went out with pearl and sharon on fri and sat respectively.. :)
Well, i did say i had a great time with the both of them... Two very different personalities... I don't know... i guess being with them give me a different feel... Being with Sharon is like being a 'tai-tai' sort...shopping (jewellery shopping included), wine, chilling... Hmm.. a complete opposite as with pearl.. maybe because i have been longer in school than pearl... when we talked about work, i seem to be like her mentor and she was like a little girl.. her naivity (and somewhat innocence) still remains.. though strangely enough she pines for something completely different of her personality. hmm... oh well... but yeah, she's her same old self... though i hope she will start dressing in more vibrant colours like red, dark yellow etc.. rather than black... think the colour doesn't do her much justice at times.
Oh well, shopping, hahah... though pearl is my best friend..i have to say we have different taste in our shopping... Whatever i look out for in a shop, it would be what she shuns away... and vice versa... Hmm...however, when i went shopping with sharon... we target the same thing.. and interestingly, yesterday we had mostly the same buys! :) Oh well... similar taste i reckon. :)
But regardless so, both of them are still very dear to me.. and i appreciate spending time with both.. So thanks girls for spending some time with me... i enjoyed myself thoroughly.
Hmm... within the past 2 days... i spent $200 on clothes and accessories... and $670 on a gift for mommy.. :) Got it from sookee together with sharon... it's a ring... i personally think it is an elegant one.. will post it one day... but yeah sharon got one for her mummy as well.. Well, that's one good thing that i am a girl and her ring size is similar to mine.. :)
Bought, like 3 dresses, 1 skirt, 1 belt so far... quite interesting... i enjoyed the shopping.. though i have to say.. it is fun when you don't do it too often... otherwise it will always be the same old thing all over again...
But i did get irritated when i saw the Goldheart ring design in the TAKA jewel shop... at $2k lesser than mine... well, Taka's ring is bigger than my current one for sure... but 1) colour isn't very nice, and the cost of the setting hasn't been factored in.. so i guess it could come out to be the same. :) But anyway, really excited to see mummy's reaction when she sees the ring.. hmm.. oh well... that's that.. but i gotta wait for 3 more weeks..
Hmm... Sigh... i miss daniel.. but i think for him... though i know he could miss me.. but new broom sweeps clean... and sometimes i feel that when always he's away.. he seems so caught up with his new environment.. that i become lesser a priority... he doesn't sound as loving on the phone and patient... maybe it's me being sensitive... but i wished he could be too....

Alone by myself.... Day 0.5...

2006-08-10T23:43:00.000+08:00

Daniel's away in Australia for 10 days... for work.. :( Boo... now i gotta come up with plans for the next 9 days... i know one of them would be to prepare for my assignment.. but oh well..
Let's see..
Friday: Go out with pearl
Sat: Go out with sharon
Sun: School for observance ceremony
Tues: Tuition
Thursday: Tuition..
okies... that's only the few days i figured what to do.. but i guess, i will be going prawn fishing on one of the days next week and probably a few days of mahjong... hmm... that should be it.. not too bad i guess. BUT i guess it will be fun to take pictures during these 10 days.. hehe.. can be fun hanging out with my friends. :)
Oh well, been spending quite a bit this month... hmm.. about half my salary... talk about saving. :) Guess i am on my sudden shopping spree surge.. it's fun i have to say.. just... expensive..
okok... guess i should just use my time to do my assignment. :( Argh.... why did i start this course again?!?!?!?! Arghh...

Babies Galore!!

2006-08-08T00:18:00.000+08:00

Of late, i realised that suddenly there's many people around me getting pregnant.. Well.. there's at least three i know of... but thing is... out of the blue... 3 is quite a lot.. :)
Hmm.. one of them is pregnant with triplets... amazing.. haha.. i mean it's like cool lah... daniel must have thought i was mad... haha.. his reason: one time the enjoyment, three times the liability. :) Well, think about it... if two of the 3 babies get to suckle on the mother's breast... what does the third baby suck on? :)
Okies... that aside... i can't wait to have kids of my own.. :) It's just an amazing thing.. it's something you can't plan nicely for.. the greatest fear is i can't have any. I just pray i won't be placed in any position to make tough choices... But oh well... we'll see lah.. it will be quite interesting if our kid comes out in 080808.. :)

Click!

2006-08-05T23:57:00.000+08:00

Well well, it's almost a week since my last entry... Hmm.. so many things happened over the week.. don't know where to start..
Okies... got my overall grade for my assignment for my first module.. yes i passed... got a 73/100.. which translates to a distinction.. quite ok i guess... since i don't have any experience in teaching and all.. and plus i ain't an expert in this... so... good job michelle. :) Thank god for his graces though! :) Well, thanks daniel and ian for being my readers for the assignments... these guys had to see if i made sense.. but the funny thing is, i may be completely smoking my way through, they won't know it..
Oh well....i went to catch the movie Click today... hahah... i missed the first part of the movie though, coz we went to AMK to eat at this place called the Botak Jones... it's like in a hawker centre and it sells american food... hmm.. first time the "zhi cha" stall isn't more popular than any other stall.. it's ok lah.. beef was a little salty.. but value for money
Anyway, back to the movie... Click is a movie where how u see this guy using a remote control to fast forward his life to episodes he would wanna be in his life... The 'inventor' was actually the angel of death.. and the main character played by adam sandler was more interested in working than his family.. going for the materials... reaching his goal/aim while forgetting his family and the moments which people tend to devalue or overlook in life... This movie serves as a reminder that the cheapest/simplest things in life are things we always don't work hard for... and compromise on... Well, the critics from the Life! newspaper didn't give it a good rating... but hey, this movie touched me to tears... it does deserve greater justice than that reporter's ratings..
Well, i like the part when the angel of death said that how sometimes people go after that pot of gold at all cost, but when they get it, they realised it's just a pot of cornflakes. :) Hmm.. well, this show doesn't tell people not to work hard and just be a family person... no.. in fact i think for your family, one should work hard.. but when one has to choose between work and family, the latter should come first.
Anyway, dan and i found the msg we'll engrave in our wedding bands... Forever and ever. :) Well.. watch the movie and you'll understand why. :) But yeah.. for now.. i am glad god gave me mummy and daddy and daniel.. :) I love them all even though i don't say so.. :)

Our Song identity...

2006-07-31T23:35:00.000+08:00

I just came back from The CD shop... went to listen to some of the cds they had and at the same time bought a cd i thought was useful for the songs for my wedding... Hmm... quite disappointed with my purchase i guess now after listening to it over and over again... Haha.. but anyway, at least i got my Steven Curtis Chapman "I will be there". Though there's quite a bit of Christian worship likeness to it.
Oh well.. that's that... the joy of choosing songs together with dan was really trying to find a suitable song for the Express Highlights. Not that we didn't have a song, we have a song we both could sorta identify with... Just the Way you are by Billy Joel. but that's quite fast a tempo and hence we thought of using it for our Pre-wedding video. :) But yeah... now we are kinda stuck as to what to use for our express highlight video. Something that can describes our love for each other... like a song identity... Don't know if i made sense... but anyway, though we've not found our song as yet... the process of finding something we both could relate to and agree on is something i am sure that will make that song we ultimately choose our song.
Somehow i think it has brought both of us closer. Choosing and deciding things together. Dan is not a nitty gritty sort of person, as in he, being a guy, is more of a 'the whole picture' sort. But i really appreciate it that he is putting in his effort in choosing the songs with me. He's easy i am sure but yeah just doing it together with him makes everything even more meaningful and i love him more for it. :)
oh well, till we find our song... that will always be a mystery. But anyway, sometimes the best things are things that you didn't look for. :)

I got my ring!!!

2006-07-30T22:06:00.000+08:00

Booo... the weekend is over so fast... but i guess it's coupled with the fact that i was attending my masters course over the weekend.. But this time round it's quite boring... Oh well, just can't wait for the course to be over. :)
Hmm... over the weekend i talked to fabian lim the videographer... he's quite famous and popular amongst wedding couples because of his romantic and simple touch to videos. However, because he was taken on that day of my wedding, he can't be my videographer. but because he's my cousin's friend, he was nice enough to give me some pointers and views which i have overlooked. He told me that as much as the videographer has a part to play, whether a video is nice and romantic or not, depends on the couples. He reminded me that the video can only be heart warming and sweet if dan and i meant our vows and all.. .:) now i don't feel too bad not having him as a videographer. So we've gotten Yang instead from Substance to do our AD video as well.. :) So another thing is settled! YAY!!!
Hmm.. so now it's decor for the place and my wedding gown design left to decide.. :) Oh and the music for the videos and all.. that's quite a lot to do.. Nvm, it's nice to go shopping for music with dan. :D Just love doing things with him so much and of course.. him too lah!
Hmm.. well i went to catch a late night movie yesterday - Fast and Furious Tokyo drift... :) Great job! I like the movie!!! Go watch it guys. The most interesting thing about that was this guy Mr Namata i think, who said this:

There's a saying:
For the want of a nail, a horse shoe is lost
For the want of a horse shoe, a steed is lost
For the want of a steed, an undelivered message is lost
For the want of an undelivered message, the war is lost

It just means that every small thing matter. :) Hmm... but the show's damn good lah.. about drifting and all.. and the japanese guys really got style and charisma... :)

Anyway, got my ring on friday.. yipee.. ;) Here's a pic of what $3838 looks like.:)

Wedding Preparations

2006-07-25T22:37:00.000+08:00

Okies... my holiday is almost over. Tomorrow is back to school day. :( Sian...
Anyway, did quite a lot of wedding preps today:

1) Confirmed and paid the downpayment for the hotel. In case you are still unaware, it's at Crown Hotel.

2) Engaged a wedding designer.. well, they basically conceptualise the wedding for us, coming up with the decor and all... quite exciting. :) They supposed to get back to me about the cost tomorrow though. keeping my fingers cross... hopefully, it won't be too ex.. :)

3) Set up an email account for all wedding liasing... as expected the mail addy is 070707@30gigs.com Yes... it's 30 gigs!!!! Can anyone beat that??? Not even gmail... and it's free. :) Just go www.30gigs.com

Oh well, that's enough for today.. probably will meet a videographer tomorrow... dan's got a meeting.. hmm... see lah if i ain't too lazy.. but thursday-sun i got class... Sigh... Hmm... then meeting aaron and angeline for dinner... the newly engaged couple! Congratulations!!! :D

Okies... shall do some work.. Cheers!

An expensive weekend

2006-07-23T23:08:00.000+08:00

Alright... the weekend is almost over.. how sad... thing is, why can't people rest for 5 days and work for 2? :( Oh well, Monday blues are setting in, fortunately tuesday's an off day for me, in lieu of the polling day on the 1st of july. :D

This weekend was damn expensive... but my proudest purchase.. a 1.2 carat ring for $3838. Yes yes i know some of you have fallen off the chair... get back on it. :) well, it's not a whole diamond ring, but like 4 oval shaped diamonds surronding a middle princess cut diamond... err... never mind, i will probably take a photo of it and place it online. :D
Well, going to pay for it myself i guess... hmm... i mean daniel has volunteered to pay.... but we'll see... :D Anyway, i bought him 2 pair of shoes cuz of his bad back... so that's like $200 plus.. hmm.. yeah yeah far from the cost of the ring.. but better than nothing. :) And he may not need to pay for it... Anyway, we've decided... once a month we'll both go shopping and buy foreach other things that come up to $200... :D We'll start next month lah... and also if we don't use all $200 it will just snowball to next month... :D How nice. :D Great! I've set eyes on this bag which cost $50 hahaha.... ;P Well instead of buying myself, it's nice a feeling for someone to buy for you and you buy for him...

Anyway, we bought hair dyes... so we'll be helping each other dye our hairs.. :D How exciting.. :D Then probably rent a VCD and "dapao" food back to watch.. can't wait till tomorrow night! :D
And back to setting my papers.... :(

What's so different about my wedding... :)

2006-07-20T23:34:00.000+08:00

Okies... here's how different my wedding will be:

1) No gate-crashing... as much it's nice to be sadistic once in a while.. i really don't think i should put the guy through all the crap of waxing, eating whatever anyone else won't eat, drinking what's even not drinkable and looking ultra-stupid.. Yes yes.. many have gone without the gate-crashing.. but at least amongst my friends or his.. we're the first. (or first few :P)

2) No meeting up 1 week before the wedding.. haha this is like a build up thingy to the wedding... will we forget how each other looks.. maybe.. but let's hope we would be pleasantly surprised. :D

3) No taking of pre-wedding photos in wedding attire... i don't know what theme we will be doing.. but wedding gowns and all are out... i dun like posing in my gown... i rather do something contemporary and get it printed in future as and when i like.

4) Groom is not going to see the gown.... at all!!!! Of course until the actual day.. i wanna wow him.. hmm... well.. or at least i hope i will. Hahaha.. ok.. sounds fun listing these 4 things down for now... we'll see what else i can expose later... some of it will be surprises... :D 070707... sigh... :D

I got my photographer!!!!

2006-07-08T18:24:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was exactly 1 year to my wedding date!!! :D Haha.. so now it's 364 days left to me walking down the aisle.
Yesterday i finally confimed my photographer for the actual day and pre-wedding. heheh.. so exciting. :) She's Monica from Vividshots... the best thing is i was just intending to look at the portfolio of the videographer (whom i also confirmed for the pre-wedding).
Okok.. went to monica's website.. but i must say her newer works are definitely better than what u see on the website. :) Whatever it was.. I loved what i saw. :) Very comfortable with that... Finally, after going to so many photographers... chris ling, tri-angles etc... Was close to signing with tri-angles but it was quite ex... hmm... triston i must say was quite good.. he did zoe tay, andrea de-cruz, jamie yeo's weddings... as for Chris ling... Daniel completely hates their shots. their trademark really is having slanting shots. SO if you are into it, chris ling is for u.
Haha... but one thing i have to say... some photographers i got contacts from were chinese speaking.. i immediately crossed them out... i can't imagine myself speaking to the person in chinese on the day... and getting instructions in chinese.
Anyway, my videographer is Yang from Substance... i didn't confirm for the actual day yet cuz his style is different from what i want.. though i have to say that daniel does fancy him a fair bit. Hmm.. but anyway, i've booked him to do my actual day.. his style is very film like.. and his concepts are great. I fell in love with his works for the pre-wedding bit almost immediately after seeing the first video and the second one just confirmed it. :) Oh well.. can't wait to show off the final works on my wedding day... 364 days to go.. :)

BAck to Blogging!!!

2006-06-29T00:37:00.000+08:00

Wow.. have not blogged for so long.. think i should do again.. especially with my wedding next year.. Can keep like an update here. :)
I've been good if you are wondering.. :) School has just started and i am quite happy with work so far which is a surprise. :) I don't know... Here's a pic of me and my family at a bkk trip recently. How's that for my artistic photography skills? I think i'm damn good lah.. :)

Yes yes.. I'm a Mrs...

2006-03-16T02:18:00.000+08:00

Yes yes.. i finally am a Mrs.. so guess i won't be an old maid.. which is something i should be grateful about.. :P
Anyway, i know some of you are eager to see the pics.. here's only a few of them coz i was kinda lazy to do up the pics.. so just feel honoured that i did SOME. :)

On the way there... in a cab... how... nice

The kiss everyone was so waiting for... like macham they never kiss before..

Together with Paul, the director of My Secret Garden... and a chance to see what i was wearing that day. :P (it's still all about me!)

Happily ever after... The End

Thank God for the taste of Love..

2006-03-14T11:26:00.000+08:00

I was reading a few of my friend's blogs.. and boy were they holy... every single sentence was thank God or praise God etc...felt funny reading it.. maybe cuz so far i thanked God for make up and pimple cream.. (trust me.. they are miracle workers esp on your big day)
oh well, but on a reflective mood.. i want to thank God for the journey of love. Yes i've had my share of ups and downs in love.. had different experiences with different people.. but still have learnt my lessons in love..
I'm glad God gave me many right ones along the way to figure what i want in a lover and to figure how to love right.. :) But mostly i'm grateful for Him to keep the best till the end. It's a few more hours before i say "I do". And though this is only in the eyes of the law.. i'm sure He's with us through. :)

From the Song of Songs: "Like an apple tree among the trees of the forest, so is my dearest compared to other men...My lover is mine and I am his... Before I knew it, my heart had made methe blessed one of my kinswomen."

My life is going to change...

2006-03-13T23:47:00.000+08:00

Just less than a day's time.. i will be called a "Mrs"... WOW... that suddenly hit me... a bit slow lah.. but.. Mrs??!?!?! and very soon dan's parents won't just be auntie and uncle? It's going to be... Mum and Dad???? Hmm... okies.. now that's weird..
I'm feeling quite anxious now... got my ROM appt today.. to verify my documents.. luckily din have to wait long.. Got a long day tomorrow..
Feeling excited yet... a little irritated.. think irritated cuz either of my pms or the nitty gritty things... like my pimple on my head (of all days), my shoes which i've not found and mostly think i am looking ugly!!!! argh! of all times!
Well, tomorrow long schedule ahead:
Morning wake up.. probably put my mask... to feel fresher.. then go down town to do shoe shopping, then go for spa..then... go to bridal studio at Tanjong pagar to change and dress up... then go down to My secret garden.. then solemnisation, then dinner, then... i dunno..
well, for people who don't know what to do in singapore... add getting married to it. :P

I finally got my dress!!!

2006-02-23T23:09:00.000+08:00

I finally found the dress that was hmm... something which i didn't feel not happy about. :) Hmm.. though i won't know if i am wowed by it, but i am happy about it. ;)
Now that i got a dress.. i can concentrate on other things.. but that aside.. sigh.. got so much bills to pay for this.. oh well.. one day at a time... but money is always the issue that will make everything or anyone feel blue...
Anyway, that aside, today i realised what made me wanna settle down with daniel... it's because this person saw all my strengths and my weaknesses... very ugly weaknesses... and he still loved me.. and motivated me to be a better person.. With a person like him, i'll be silly to let him go.. :)
Honestly, I am feeling all so blissful now.. silly but happy. :)

Choosing my ROM dress..

2006-02-23T00:08:00.000+08:00

I went with daniel to choose my rom dress today.. hm.. quite limited in choices.. But oh well, it's nothing big.. :) Hm.. will be going to the tampines branch tomorrow to see what other selection is there. :) I saw one which i'm fine with it... but haven't found one that wow me... hmm.. like sort of hit me that that's the dress i really really want.. hmm... don't know if i am expecting too much.. but yeah.. slowly lah.. maybe tomorrow..
oh well, when we were there there were quite a few of other brides choosing their gowns.. How nice.. next year i guess it will be my turn.. So exciting.. hm.. but yeah.. they weren't wearing the gowns i would like to wear... Hmm.. but the gowns are really longgggg and i am really short... Sigh..don't know how..
Oh well, to think about it..it's going to be another 3 weeks before i change my surname legally... Yikes...

Now to the next stage of life..

2006-02-21T23:34:00.000+08:00

Hihi.. yes yes it's me... haven't been blogging for the longggggggggggggest time.. but now that i am back.. wanted to have a quick update..
Been quite okie... in general.. healthy, happy, relatively contented. :) Dan proposed on 30th dec 2005, and yes yes i finally got to see the ring.. and keep it.. HAHA
Oh well, we have been doing some house hunting and we got a place at holland drive... we will be staying at block 16.. so in future anyone who wants to go for tea/drinks.. u know who to call. :)
Anyway, it's a simple 3 room flat.. this flat is actually an enbloc flat.. so we will be getting our new place at quite a low price in 3 years time!!! yippee...
So yeah..quite excited.. till then the next exciting thing is dan and i are going to rom in march 14... I din realise it, but thanks to pearl, it's actually.. 14/03... 143? If you're in the paging era... 143 means i love u.. hehe.. How cool..
Oh well, glad things are getting better.. yes dan and i have still our disagreements once in a while.. but honestly after last year's hurdle.. we are much stronger now.. :)
Thanks be to God!

What if....

2005-11-30T01:01:00.000+08:00

A few days ago i was hit by a thought... Do people know when their time is up? As in.. do they.. or will they be warned... unconsciously that their time will probably be up soon?
I dunno but... that made me think.. what if i am running out of time... what if my time is up soon.. I even thought how i might die... drowning.. i can't too painful.. and i guess all being painful.. i rather be stabbed. :) Oh well too morbid for someone too young?
I've lost a friend in J1.. she was my best friend in primary school.. and she was one of the RJ girls who drowned in the OBS trip... Quite a big hoo-ha... Hmm.. but she died when she was 17... So... that means her mid-life crisis was when she was in p2-3, considering what friends to play with etc.
A few days ago i was caught up with the idea of settling down with someone but now i think there's probably more to life than just that.. i do hope i can go to Aceh and do some missionary work from the 11th Dec to 18th Dec..
Maybe it helps knowing that even if i don't die, i managed to live life to the fullest with this trip. :) I may not be the most perfect person till now, but i'm slowly changing...
Was discussing with someone that no one is irreplaceable. He pointed out that some people maybe aren't... like Abraham Lincoln etc... But.. even if they have passed on, their spirits lived on. And what they can't achieve, someone else continued the work that they believed.
I guess essentially, anyone need not live to do something great to have had led a great life. But if the person has managed to touch you to inspire on something good.. that's enough.
Whatever it is, this sharing should not be a freaky one.. for all you know i will be still here for the next 100 years. :) But this entry should be a reminder on the quality of life we lead. Live life to the fullest.. maybe... but fullest for someone to continue that fullness..... :)

My ideal lover...

2005-11-28T12:05:00.000+08:00

Someone with unconditional love...
That whenever i do something bad and ugly, he will be able to accept me and love me more..
and maybe i will change because of his forgiveness and gentleness...

Someone with enormous amount of patience...
That even if i falter in my actions and words, he will help me up and encourage me to try again... and maybe i will do what is needed to be done because of his understanding and love..

Someone with great amount of affections..
That when i feel scared, lost, sad, down, unsure, doubtful, insecure, assures me time and again and maybe i will be able to carry on with the journey because of his hugs and kisses..

Someone with a huge desire for me...
That to him, i am so very important that he will give up everything to find me even when i stray
and maybe i will be able to sacrifice all when it's my turn...

Someone with a tremendous will to take risk for me...
That despite knowing that i am not worth it, tells me it's ok and he still wants to be with me
and maybe i will be able to offer and submit my whole life to him..

Someone, through all my maybes, still says "Will you spend the rest of your life with me?"...
Then surely i will reply "I wanna spend the rest of your life with me"

Sounds unbelievable? There's just this one i know who will... in fact everyone has this partner too.. just keep looking hard...

Reflecting... again..

2005-11-28T01:11:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. it's been a long time since i last blogged... Hmm... okies a quick update... daniel and i are back together.. a few changes have been made.. but the both of us are getting on fine. :)
Went to quite a few weddings this weekend... happy for couples who are getting married and being one step closer in union.. this week sort of rekindled some kind of desire in me to wanna settle down.. but i guess it was an immature part of me...
I've never thought of the cost of getting married, settling down and all... to all those who are going through that and surviving.. kudos to you. Hmm.. that made me wonder.. how did the people in the past do it? How did the people earning much lesser do it? How do people settle down? Why do they settle down? Isn't just being with the person you love regardless how long... enough?
Well.. to that.. i think yes it's enough.. it's not neccessary typically for one who views marriage as a contract to see why people should settle down and get married... but because it's not neccessary, doesn't mean it's not a good bonus people shouldn't look forward to.
Society paints marriage now typically in movies, a very rosy and easy affair. Even ending it seems to be a piece of cake... so why the rush to jump into something, which in order to succeed, there's a risk of no security, is highly dangerous, underly commended, overly rated, doubly amount of hard work, and the list goes on... of course movies won't highlight this part... why on earth should we do it?
I've toyed the thought of other vocations.. specifically the nunhood... but i guess i was pretty contented on getting married and working on this vocation that i just gave up on the other... I remember someone told me once that if it's a choice between two great things, God just wants me to choose the one i think will make me happier. Maybe now because marriage is just what i really hope for, i really wish that would be the choice i can have for my vocation.. but maybe.. just maybe i might be wrong. Maybe all this while... i should just really focus on nunhood... and contemplate things...
I guess each vocation doesn't differ in that prayer is much needed.. and each is exclusive in itself... its just to who should i choose to be exclusive to.
Yes i do feel happy being with daniel.. :) Yes i do feel for and even love him... but i have to reconsider the other vocation. I had a dream of settling down in 2 years time.. but i see it not possible.. :) If i do, it's really a miracle.. but yeah i should consider this part.. I'm slowly letting go the idea of getting married.. slowly.. though a part is still hoping... but it takes time... :) I'm slowly letting go the idea that i will never be married and have kids of my own.. but oh well.. if there's a greater calling... why not..
I wonder if whether people do know that their time is running out.. as in.. yes people do die.. sometime... somehow.. somewhere... but i wonder before they do.. do they have like an intuition that they will not be able to live through some time? How is the intuition like... what would it be like...
Today's gospel on being ready for the second coming of christ.. is also being ready for the time of death will come. I do hope to have a mission trip to Aceh for some missionary work. Maybe that will open my eyes and increase my maturity in handling things.

Finally... it's over.. But i'll be fine..

2005-11-11T23:31:00.000+08:00

The past few weeks i have been contemplating about my relationship with daniel. Yes yes... we broke up.. at least to my understanding and part.
I didn't really had a chance to reflect and understand why i should choose this path.. but i guess sometimes we need not need to understand the reason at the beginning.. but maybe later in future we can..
I guess i am able to now move on and not talk or think about the possibility of a patch... I guess all these while the only thing that is holding me back is the thought that maybe daniel will do something to get me back. And yes i know he's probably working something out.. but now i hope if he gets to read this... he won't continue. :) I'm bailing out this time again... and i hope it's going to be the last and final time. :)
At this point, i really like to thank some of my friends who came and helped me along the way, cheer me up and offer their listening ear... You know who you are so... thanks a million. Sweet to have some of your smses... :) But now, i think i wanna take some time out from the friends who have supported me...
We'll catch up one day.. someday... when i am ready to talk about it, to meet up and even to laugh about this... But for now, i know i am not able to do so. Thousands of apologies.
Well, for now, i think i am going to go full swing in the masters programme. problem is need to check if it's recognised here.. at least there's something to focus on. :D
So my dear friends, i'll be fine. Will update you guys on what's happening on you know where... Don't worry too much. I will survive... Not the first time anyways. :) If there's anything you guys wanna help me, pray for me. :)
My Prayers will be with you too.

On a lighter note..

2005-11-11T01:18:00.000+08:00

Here's the pictures i took today.. enjoy...

Christmas lightings... yes it's that time of the year again.. how time flies.... Will it be special this year? Hmmm..

Abi wanted to display his photographic talents.... hmm... it is saved cuz I am in the pic...

Finally my attempt at artistic shots again... "Partners" How cheezy... at least i didn't name it "Cheelli" or.. "Chi-eese" Hmm... oh well, i think its cool... i tried in Black and white.. but doesn't have that character...

And chelle thinks.... again...

2005-11-11T00:24:00.000+08:00

Just got back from an outing with abi.. no no nothing's happening don't get it wrong. We're just friends.. :) But anyway, these few days got enlightened by quite a lot of things...

1) Was reading a book on Blessed Josemarie Escriva (now saint lah) quite cool... You know when bad things happen to us and we wonder why? Hmm.. like why did God allow that? and so on... Saint Josemaria is different...
"Don Josemaria's greatness of soul placed him well above all this bickering, although that did not stop him suffering, not because he felt personally wounded but rather because of the offence given to God by all that slander, and the harm that could be caused to souls"
Wow.. i so love the last part... How many times when someone blame us for something we didn't do and we feel so injust... and yet we do the same to God... but that didn't hit me as much as the last part... That because of that, a potential believer will always be an agnostic.. And.. what harm have i done? That's a huge price to pay.. and i will never be able to undo that....

2) Hmm.. next on love... Have you ever thought why during a wedding the priest always say thank you to the couple for allowing themselves to be a testimony of Christ's love for the world? Is it really because society devalues marriage so much that when a couple embraces such sacrament, we applaud their bravery? Hmm... I think marriage is quite a difficult vocation to live by... harder than the holy orders i have to say.. yet the beauty of marriage isn't the unity of 2 people... period.. it's the unity of 2 with the help of God.
In my life, i have seen people who are married and don't communicate with one another and there's no love or happiness. But i take pride to say that the beauty of some marriages is, even there was no sparks between the couple, i have seen the worst relationship mending and sticking together with the help of prayer.
And that's the thing... it's not easy to stay in love... it's not easy to love.. and not easy to be loving all the time.. But with the help of prayer... these change. It remains hard, don't get me wrong, but the thing is, you remain 1 body instead of two...
Marriage shouldn't be as what the society portrays. I am not getting all lovey dovey... I understand there's a certain risk involved.. and i know people always have the mentality of insurance... to be sure before u plunge... but i guess, a married couple shouldn't devalue this vocation of marriage by asking the person to be sure and don't get yourself involved so soon.. period. But i think especially married couples, be a true testimony to how prayers have helped in your life. Sure warn people of the risks, but ensure and encourage them to pray together. That's how Christ carried his cross. He knew of the result but he didn't end there... he continued with prayer...
Prayer is a powerful tool... yet a tool i haven't been using much.... especially with dan... and maybe i should...

Well... So much heavy stuff.... enough for one post...

A night out with my girlfriends...

2005-11-09T19:21:00.000+08:00

Went out with nana and pearl on Monday... Was supposed to catch up earlier.. but just didn't manage to.. oh well at least now we have more reason to.
Hmm.. went to eat at this sushi don or something near funan.. beside watsons.. quite ok.. wasn't very good.. but it was cheap. 3 of us was just $25 or so...
Quite a good company, laughed quite a bit.. Check out the pictures..
From left... Nana (Verena), me and pearl... at menolti's... for dessert... I am so getting fat..
They actually have such a thing....

OKies... gotta run.. gonna meet pearl for dinner and some girl-2-girl talk...

The next "in" thing.. photography... (2)

2005-11-06T02:54:00.000+08:00

Can't load these pictures in the previous post.. so.. here...
For those of you who wonder who Abi is... he's going to be a SIA steward!!!
"Mahjong": One of my favourites....
A picture of me... Looks quite scary... like sticking out from nowhere...

The next "in" thing.. photography...

2005-11-06T02:32:00.000+08:00

Went for dinner with Abi today... not bad.. had fun.. :) He's a senior from CJ.. Quite a nice chap..Went for mass at Cathedral, then dinner at Timbre... for those who don't know Timbre is near the old National library... Nice pasta and Pizzas.. worth trying.
Anyway, thanks to abi, i finally learnt how to do black and white shots!!! I am beginning to love my camera... and photography.. haha!!!! So which is ur fav???
"Words": Did a close up on my keyboard....
"Safe or stuck": The use of a lock... how a simple and small metal can give you the assurance that you are safe.. or so you think...
"Signs": Went with some friends to grab a bite... Was waiting for them while they ordered their food... no prizes from where...
"Serenity": Don't you feel calm being in front of the altar?
"Peek-a-boo": Took a shot through the peep hole..

Releasing my artistic side...

2005-11-05T00:36:00.000+08:00

Had dinner with nat today... we've not met for such a long time... had a great chat and caught up quite a bit... Wow... looks like i have yet to catch up with many of my friends. Hmm... but it's glad to know that sometimes though u don't need to meet up so often... i still can call people out and catch up with them... :) That's nice... it's nice to know that we have friends... :D and enjoy their company... Thanks for dinner too girl! hehe..
Anyway, took some pictures while she busied herself with smses and calls... (I had NO smses lor.. can u believe it???? Sigh... so sad.. and the only call i had was someone who dialled wrongly.. sigh...) But anyway, so proud that my camera can take so nice shots.. hehe.. hmm... now i gotta 'name' my pictures....
"Pair": It's a crappy name for a cool pic.. i really like the pic... check out the pepper on the shakers.... Just... wow... boy am i good... :D
"Filth": While my dear friend went to throw some litter... i took an upclose shot of these buds... cute? Think she's right some smoke from it would be good... :)
"Time": Just playing with the clock in the car... waited for the ":" to appear.... A lot of skill.. a little luck. :P

When you are not ready...

2005-11-03T10:34:00.000+08:00

I love getting married... I always plan and wonder when will it be my turn to exchange vows with the person i love, to begin a whole new chapter, to go for my honeymoon and all... Especially when the previous experience of choosing between the 2 vocations of getting married and being a nun, i thought after when i had made my choice of getting married, i really wanted it...
But i guess dan and i are at different levels of wanting to get married. To him, i suppose he wants to marry me... just that his definition of soon and my definition of soon is very different. Well, we may agree on the date.. but both of our levels of excitement are different... sometimes it seems that the ball is in his court and we are just going according to his shots...
Whatever it is, i've learnt that the crack of a relationship can come from different expectations of engagement or marriage. The different levels of enthusiasm and the different stages to it. We clash in all these... When we did make plans, we varied in our thinking. Yes we may be similar otherwise, but this is a big hurdle...
Sometimes i feel that he is just making these plans to 'reserve' me, and not doing anything about it. You know the feeling of just moving along and waiting and waiting. Yes daniel is a good catch, and i am sure he will have NO problem getting himself another girl.. But at this time, he's not for me. He took too long...
Now, as i move on with all these experiences, i know theres one thing i won't do... mention the topic of marriage or talk about it... No meaning if it's just the desire of one person...

Sun... Sand... Water.. Paparazzi

2005-11-03T10:21:00.000+08:00

Last Tuesday, the girls and i went to the beach for some tanning.. haha.. the sun was so damn hot man.. can' t we have the sun and cool air? Oh well, had some girl bonding... Problem is there were so many blangah-workers.. Not that i am playing colour.. what i didn't appreciate was that they held the camera and walked towards us and snapped us!!!! Talk about being rude! And its not just once! They knew we were looking and were upset and they just took them! Argh... Won't want to know what will they be using them for..
The girls and me... From Left: Ellen, Me, Sharon
This is not revenge time.. but i can't help it... Check out what they were wearing to swim!!! Problem is some of the colours were so close to their skin colour that we thought they were wearing a g-string!
A pea-hen on the tree.. How pretty... But anyway, i didn't know they could climb trees...
A gift from Sharon... How pretty!! Now it's on my phone.. hehe

My "Virgin" Halloween Experience (2)

2005-11-01T23:38:00.000+08:00

Can't upload any more pictures in the other entry.. so... here's part 2..
Went to Attica with two friends.. of the group... I dunno her name.. it's quite... complicated... but the other is John/Jon... isn't he so cute??????? ***Crush Alert*** why didn't i get his no?? (Rite...)
Some girls and me... i don't know them... but guys this is like ur dream wallpaper.. esp the hooters girl...
Pretty girls... i like the second girl.. she's a frog.. haha.. or toad... check out her shoes!
Back to Zouk... Girls really shouldn't drink too much

My "Virgin" Halloween Experience (1)

2005-11-01T22:54:00.000+08:00

Happy halloween... Last night was my first halloween party.. hence my "virgin party" It was ok lah... was expecting more.. but oh well.. was just trying to take in as much as i could... and all the pictures.. it's madness how i become like a star going round taking pictures with strangers (and the best thing is.. i didn't ask them!!) Haha.. It's amazing after seeing so many 'ghosts' i didn't go back having a nightmare..
oh well, the only thing which is a bitch is that i needed to pay cover at zouk... cuz i didn't pass the costume control... pig.
My first stop: Sharon and I at Alley Bar... :)
Twins..... Sort of....
My Second Stop: Together with Gerald at Zouk
Clinton and Bush... Cute huh...
I guess these people got in free... but between paying and looking pretty... the choice is quite clear...
I didn't know he was the mask... or green until i saw the picture.. i call him the lychee martini guy.. cuz he bought me one.. haha
A group with i don't know who outside zouk... haha that's the only time i can go into a picture and not be scolded siao. :P
I saw this girl from No 1 Costume Costume.. hehe... her name's Yvonne..

Break ups and marriages

2005-10-30T02:00:00.000+08:00

Today's entry is going to be a little weird... but readers... i am fine.. i just am reflecting... don't ask me anything...
Off late, i am in contact with people of varied development in their relationships... some whom i thought they were meant for each other ended in a break... some whom i didn't expect it so soon, got married or are getting married soon... From one extreme to another.. These changes made me reflect about me and dan...
What do i want from a lover.. i've listed them all out (Or nearly all of them) in the previous entry.. But what do i want from a relationship... Is it the same? I don't know...

1) The feeling of security.. stability.. Daniel is a very stable guy... but it's very different from feeling stable in a relationship.. Not that he's not stable career wise or emotional aspects.. just that..i don't feel my relationship is going anywhere.. or heading towards anywhere.. it's like friendship... Yes, a love relationship should have an aspect of friendship.. but this has no direction... everything is like 'see first' sort of thing... and i guess sometimes it sucks because some decisions affect other aspects in my life.. Things are so unsure that when i discuss my future with him, it's always "IF" rather than "when"...

2) The feeling of being jadedness... Daniel is a very nice fellow... and in his own way he shows he cares... but at times his intentions are not conveyed well through his actions and words. jadedness is such that being together for so long, we have changed our way of showing we care and our love... relationships are really hard work... and i'm slowly giving up on trying to work at it... maybe cuz we have just lost touch with God in the relationship.... Yes we go church together once a while... but even going to mass at times don't seem to connect us... just.. different...

Maybe there's no THE ONE for everyone out there... there's just someone that we make out to be the one.. Daniel and i went through engaged encounter and i thought we were similar in our way of life... it's just that i think at times i don't want to continue in something i don't know what the future holds...
Especially now, life's very short and unpredictable, you can just slip and hit yourself on the head one day and never wake up, or can get bitten by mosquitoes and get dengue, or get bird flu, or get bombed, or get washed away, or get a viral infection............ you get the picture..
If one day you wake up and your partner was not around because of this.. what's the regret you will have? I thought of it and i guess the regret i had was not to have started my married life with that person earlier.. does it make a difference to whether i am married or not when u are with that person? Yes it does, because there's always a limit to how much i can give when i am not married... I always plan for a grand wedding and all... and now... i can even settle for something less... but... Overplanning kills... Prepare the umbrella for rainy days, but will getting a bigger umbrella with no one to share be as meaningful as getting a small one with who you hoped to be with...
I planned too much for my relationship, maybe that's just women... or just me.. now i don't seem to want the umbrella or the company... because i don't feel satisfaction in either... Relationships are such a pain....

Thinking deeper...

2005-10-24T23:22:00.000+08:00

Well... thanks to kester who thinks my blog is nothing more than just work and friends... Sigh... i shall do something quite morbid in today's entry... Let me explain why... Recently over the weekend, the Newpaper ran an article on this kidney donation from a dengue carrier.. well, apparantly this dengue carrier is dan's mother's friend.. and according to her, the husband didn't wanna give the wife a longer time despite the friends' plea... Well... which is quite different from her other friend whose husband allowed his wife to sleep for 35 years... And ONLY when he was about to die, did he ask for the machine to be switched off..
Hmm... Patients who had gone into coma and woke up said that when they were asleep they had this image of this ugly looking creature who wouldn't just let them out.. despite them trying to get up from the 'sleep'...
Hmm.. Which makes me wonder.. what will i do if i slipped into a coma....
In case this happens to me..
1) Give me some time to sleep.... 3 months max... and if i don't wake up, donate ALL my organs to whoever... of course check that i don't have any illness first...
2) Say the rosary for me... come and visit me and say it WITH me... I'll join you in another 'world'...
On a lighter note, i just found out that there's a master degree programme... in Education Policy, Practice and Innovation.. which is what i am looking for... I have applied for it.. it's a whooping 6700 pounds... :) But luckily there's something called F&M Sponsorship... Father and Mother.. haha :P
Oh well, i do hope to get it... Pray for me...

I hate ulcers..

2005-10-20T23:36:00.000+08:00

Day 3 of the marking... quite fruitful.. quite fast.. :) Tomorrow one more stack and we are done.. Yipee.. :D

Oh well, i hate retainers... they give me ulcers.. Sigh... not 1, not 2... but 3!!!!!! Ouch.. now i wonder is it better to have ulcers all in one area or separated?? Hmm.. Oh well.. That aside.. was asking my colleagues today... see if anyone can tell me...you see... 1980... u call it 80s... 1970.. u call it 70s... 1990... u call it the 90s... 2000,2001, 2002.. etc... what would you say???

Anyway, Solved my nokia thingy already.. got my warranty and phone fixed.. Sigh... finally after all that ding dong... Oh well... I'm glad with my phone really.. wasn't hoping for a new one.. just din want to lose my warranty..

That aside, though i am not terribly a fan of straight hair.. i love the condition of my hair.. just.. so like it.. so soft and nice.. hehe... :)

Hmm... was thinking through things.. dan's a nice chap... but i wish at times he can connect better with my family.. like talk to them more.. or when my parents talk to him.. he would respond back with more interest rather than just be busy with other things and superficially... Is that something i should consider and be 'wary' about? he fits me in other areas.. mostly.. but.. this is still lacking.. Sigh... Let me think through it and get back on this... Yes he's not marrying my parents.. but seeing the way he converse with them.. doesn't feel.. right... I don't know... I got a feeling God will just do the trick and send someone with that calibre.. but lacks something else Daniel has... or maybe just as good as dan.. :) Whatever it is.. i'm waiting... Haha.. :D

Anyway, my friend diong recommended this... http://fishki.net/pics5/illusion_dis.jpg... if u stare at the black dot hard enough the other colours will fade.. try it.. :D

Adding colour to my life...

2005-10-19T22:47:00.000+08:00

The PSLE marking is here... sigh.. so tiring... I dunno how many scripts i mark everyday... but it's enough... kids' english... sigh.... luckily im not marking english.. just science.. but science is written in english.. which is quite a terror.. no wonder the current education system is downplaying mother tongue.. they can't even handle english.. Oh well... But that aside.. i met some teachers from other schools.. haha.. i must admit... there are a few that's quite an eye-candy.. hahaha... Like in the same center..this assistant head.. who u consult on whether some questions u give marks or not... is quite a charmer.. good-looking, nice, just.. charming.. haha.. but he does seem quite old.. maybe 30 odd? Hmm.. but oh well.. think he will think i am just a small girl.. :) Oh well, there's another guy.. haha thought he was a malay initially.. but turn out to be a chinese guy teaching at ACS Primary... quite cute.. :)
Oh well.. that's that.. that makes marking exciting at times.. haha.. but that aside... just go there to work.. sigh.. can't wait to get it over and done with... But MARKING CAN REALLY DRAIN YOU... feeling so tired now.. :(
But anyway it's nice cuz i received some compliments today from teachers from my friend's school... got a nice pair of lungs.. which infer to my front. :) Haha.. swimmer's shoulders... looks nice blah blah.. :D
That aside, went to a saloon today to do some highlights for my hair.. haha... but yeah... not very obvious cuz of my profession.. but it's ok lah... natural. maybe when it goes lighter i will put up another pic again.. go swimming or maybe just keeping washing my hair? :P Siao...
But i must say i like the condition of my hair now.. :D

Can you see any colour?? Hmm... but since i took the pic... just admire me.. haha

Back to being straight....

2005-10-18T00:15:00.000+08:00

I went back to straight hair.. no more curls... it's mixed reactions... some people like me in the previous hairstyle... the others prefer me in this... I just look good in both lah... :) I love my self-confidence.. Haha.. BUt anyway, i think i look like a plain jane now.. just neater... :) But from now on i think i will invest in a curling thong... so if i dun like my curls... one wash and it's gone...

The new plain jane....

How i look?

Oh well.. back to the 'battle' with Nokia... I still didn't manage to get a satisfactory answer... Sigh... looks like i gotta fight harder.. Why are they so sticky about warranty... oh well... will update you more though.. but today one of the managers of the outlet called me... gave him a shelling... Well... Bitch in action again.. but you can't blame me... they gave me the same response... of how the warranty states this and states that... yada yada yada... Whatever.. point is.. I told him off and told him that it was unfair if the phone has already been giving me problems when it was less than a week... And how unfair it was if i signed off my warranty that i am taking full responsibility when in actual fact did nothing at all!!! And i told them i am going to bring it up to CASE and the papers... not sure if i have the patience to do it.. but i am sure daniel will... and i really think Nokia should just give in to this one rather than putting up with an annoying customer like me... Well we'll see really... for the time being.. just waiting for the answer...

Anyway, josie, alan, ian and i went out for a small get together today.. How fun.. had so much laughter and all... never imagined we'll bond so much after exco.. thought we will just pass each other paths and say good bye.. :) Glad we are meeting up quite often though... Never really told them but i'm glad that we've become friends.. :) Feel so blessed.. :D

What a weekend..

2005-10-17T01:10:00.000+08:00

Am totally irritated and disgusted with NOKIA's service...
Bought my 6101 phone about 1 week ago. and it's starting to give me problems.. NOKIA has no one-to-one exchange.... Which means if the phone is cranky within the week u are not entitled to change for a new set.... What a policy.. which unlike the other brands...Fine... i dun mind such policy provided my phone doesn't give me that problem.. But no... it had to.. How lucky.. Argh! I got the phone from Starhub... started to be cranky brought it to Nokia care to fix it...said i can get it today.. no problem... only to find out today that my phone is actually corroded with liquid... WTF?!?!!?!
I didn't even put it near water or anything... my screen is ok.. my battery is ok.. my number pad is corroded.... The thing is .. warranty states it actually won't cover damages like these... So.. they thought they are doing me a favour by fixing it.. BUT i won't be able to use my warranty in future!!!!! And it's not even any fault of mine...
They kept harping on what they warranty says until me being a bitch had to say "Stop telling me about the warranty... I can read thank you very much". Yes i know what a BITCH... but i was upset... I still dunno what the outcome will... But if i can get my phone fixed without any need to forego my warranty... I will be a bitch!!! Nokia should really just give me a new set of phone than to deal with an annoying customer....

On a lighter note...
Yesterday was dan's mum's bday.. went to NUSS guild house for a celebration.. it was ok... wore my aodai.. BAD MISTAKE.. people thought it was a wedding dress... guess i shouldn't have picked white... it was okie.. but buffet is a bad mistake... now i'm growing fat again.. argh...
A group picture.....

We tried taking a snap on our own... Turn out quite nice i must say... And we both have nice teeth.. haha... So obsessed with my teeth now...

Dan and i went to Far East Plaza today to check out the hair saloons there... For MY Hair.. but it was too late to straighten it... so we decided to visit Aubrey at his shop today.. Dan made 2 shirts.. And i spent nothing... ARGH...

Who said shopping for men was easy... just for one shirt... there's so many variations.... VAIN POTS...
Everyone say hello to Aubrey... :)

A night with a person i never thought possible...

2005-10-15T01:41:00.000+08:00

Ladies and gentlemen... this... this is the person i never thought i would harmoniously sit and chat with for minutes let alone hours... but still went out with him today.. surprised? Yeah i am.. but nevertheless i enjoyed his company and myself.. laughed, chatted, catching up... Oh he bought for me my aodai all the way from Vietnam.. though i wished it was paid for me too.. haha. But that aside... this is the person i mentioned in my earlier blog entry who apparently has similar personality as me.... Yeah... he may be arrogant and all sometimes, but he's really really nice and cool to be with.. (yes.. his head will get bigger after reading this) but honestly really admire him for his intellect and his ability to stand up for what he believes... Which i think not many people can.... So.. keep it up friend!
Oh well... here's some pics...
Had dinner at some german restaurant... We had pork knuckles... he needed to put on weight.. i needed to lose it... Why can't God just make life easier for some of us???
Don't know if you can see it properly.. but apparently in germany they have markings on each cup.. that's how much they'll fill the drink to.. :) Interesting..
Tried on my AoDai.... Think i look fat leh... stupid knuckles....

Long awaited entries... (3) Michael Buble's Concert...

2005-10-15T01:28:00.000+08:00

Went to Buble's concert with Daniel and his cousin, Sharon... My first concert i must say.. but atmosphere a bit salah... i dunno...There were like 8000 people??? Phew... Crowded man... though our seats were in the 2nd price range... the stage was so far that he looked like a small ant from where we were sitting.... he had good showmanship... but i was hoping he could sing songs like The way you look tonight and Quando... Oh well.... Had fun... Here's some pics...
Sharon and me.... Pretty girl huh??? Want her number... Don't ask me..

He didn't know i took it... But sigh... waste money and it was just starting..

Buble.... can you see him??? :)
Mass orgy...yeah...

Long awaited Entries... (2) I've removed my braces!!!

2005-10-13T14:28:00.000+08:00

Hip hip hurray!!! I've removed my braces... now i haven't stopped smiling to show EVERYONE my teeth... hahaha... but the thing is... no one is noticing it!!! BOOOOOOOOOO
But yeah... just some pics of how i look without braces.... It's been a longgggggggggg time.... 4 years odd to be exact... Freedom... Hmm.. just need to wear retainers now... cept it's giving me quite a bit of problem..
But that aside... I AM BRACELESS!!!! haha... whatever english it is...

(Both pictures courtesy from my new phone... N6101. I lost my other phone... sigh... oh well... think this phone makes me look fat.. ok... i must exercise... i know i must...)

Long awaited entries... (1) Outing with pals

2005-10-11T22:48:00.000+08:00

I've been really busy and haven't been blogging much... hmm maybe lazy is a better word lah.. But anyway, got quite a few to type in so doing bit at a time...
Went out with my exco friends to some seafood place at bukit timah area... had loads of fun. Discussed a whole range of topics. From God to dirty jokes. Haha... but a nice fellowship. :)
Enjoyed myself tremendously. :D
Our starters for that day... clam chowder...
We shared a hot seafood dish.... I din get to eat the lobster!!! PIGS
Finally a group picture.... :)

White... What is with that colour?

2005-09-22T00:19:00.000+08:00

Haven't been updating my blog and there's loads of pictures to load... but i guess i will wait till tomorrow or something to do those trivial stuff..
Today, i just wanna reflect on what i think about ang mohs... No... i don't don't like them... just don't fancy them too... Why is white a more superior colour to another race? at this point i am not saying that all whites are racist, think they are better, arrogant snobs etc... I am sure there are many who aren't... one being the pope. (my favourite)
But that's not the point. one thing i like about angmohs... they just know how to carry themselves well... too darn well compared to most asians... Good for them... But what i hate most is the 'special' treatment they get over asians, the thinking that they are better than us and they can do a good job. Why?
I just had an encounter with one unreasonable, pain in the place-where-the-sun-doesn't-shine fella... who thinks his gf and any girl his gf is hanging out with is unfaithful and a player... because they party. *rolls eyes* here's the irony... he's married and having a mistress.
Ask me what i think about having an angmoh as a bf.... yes he looks good, but be sure he doesn't fancy an asian girl because he finds her exotic.... is it because they cant find an angmoh lady to boss around with? I don't know... but Asian girls who think of looking for an angmoh bf... think twice....
Yes i am upset with that guy's weird thinking and ways of sowing discord amongst some of us... maybe an asian guy will and has the ability to do the same... but i just hate it how THAT angmoh guy despite his age is doing something indespicable... what a shame.. of how others make them out to be the 'better' race act in such a pagan manner....

My Sunday...

2005-09-12T20:37:00.000+08:00

As you know now whenever i go, i try to carry with me a camera so that i can take pictures and put them on the blog... :D
Well... Anyway, daniel and i went to Best Denki at IMM and got a camera... YIPPEE... Initially we wanted to get a Canon Ixus cuz i thought Canon is probably the best for cameras, but later this salesman introduced Fujifilm FinePix Z1.... Maybe i should take a close up shot using my camera... that was the reason why i bought the camera. :D The close-up is damn sharp and good man... perfect. :D Anyway, you can find out more about the camera at this site:
http://www.letsgodigital.org/en/news/articles/story_2510.html

Then went to watch the law musical at night with David... Roses and Hello. It's like this love musical about some lawyers and this flower girl... and their sort of love triangle... The plot was soso... the voices... were soso (cept for the male actors...) the show quite dramatic lah... But anyway, really missed being on stage... :)
Anyway, after that i went to Little Bali or Villa Bali with David and chilled there for a while... :) Usually, if i go there, i would have my favourite ice wine. :) But because he was driving and it was just the two of us, we decided to go away with the alcohol and we ordered mocktails. :D He had a glass of Gunner (which i have to say it's quite nice)... while i had Frangipani... haha because of the musical... it was about roses and flowers... and the lead actress was named Peni... so... :D But trust me, given a choice again, i would probably go for a Gunner. Oh now they have Sheesha there... Haven't tried it before... maybe i should one day.... It's $25.. Hmm..

Our drinks... in case you didn't know, Gunner is the one on the left. :D
David making monkey faces...

Finally a picture together... :D (I took it too!!! Hahaha... Boy am i getting better!)

My Saturday Night....

2005-09-12T20:23:00.000+08:00

Saturday night was spent alone... well... not really.. but i had no concrete plans that day... met Kevin for dinner then went to Alley's to chill for a while before meeting up with Daniel and his colleagues for more wine at wine network i think... the one at demsey road with ultra bad service...
Anyway we ate at Billy Bombers at Heerens... had a little guest... a fly was on my napkin... it was dying lah... poor thing...
I had spaghetti... I love pasta! :D It was ok lah... just felt really stuffed after that...

Kevin had this mixed grill... looks good huh? :) But think it would be too much for me..Kevin had this mixed grill... looks good huh? :D But too much for me...
And for sides.... we had Cheese Rings.. But it was really too much for me... he took the onion rings back for his friends.. ;D

Anyway, went to Alley's Bar.. haven't been there for a long long time.. so was really glad to go there. I always enjoy the concept where u can just sit down and chill and talk to other people... both girls and guys. :DThat night wasn't exceptional. Had some drinks with this lady called Terisa... she was quite sweet and cool. :D And fun to talk to too! Oh and she's younger than me can??? She's like 21... :) Had also a delightful time with the bartenders. The bartender here is Fuz.. very sweet guy.. i like going to pubs knowing the bartender and they will joke with you and all. :D

Friday Night Out (2)

2005-09-10T01:11:00.000+08:00

Can't load all the pictures in the previous post so i gotta break them up...

My artistic side taking over.... :)

Last but not least cheers from the both of us! :D (I took the shot!!! :D)

Friday Night Out...

2005-09-10T00:40:00.000+08:00

Went out tonight... Had fun.. had dinner with daniel and later went out with some friends... Here's the pics: The first shot.... In the lift at Harbour Front.... Going to Spizza to have dinner... :)

Our first shot together at the restaurant... Dan took it... the one i took made me look fat so we deleted it.. hahaha...

Since he took a shot of me... i took a shot of him.. :) Ain't i a good photographer??

He wanted to take a picture of me.... SO... WHY NOT? :P

The Food we had.... Yummy Yummy... :D these are the usuals we normally have at that place.. think the bill came up to about 50 plus???

The friends we met... Panmei and Teik Suai.. both dentists... like duh...

A day of snaps...

2005-09-08T23:23:00.000+08:00

Decided to go around with my camera.. Snapping pictures of interesting things i see along the way.. or at least not the usual things u see..

Well, went to the seminar... humour @ work... ok lah.. quite interesting. Saw a couple of friends there. anyway, the food is... yuck... it's halal and vegetarian.. so all starch and stuff... terrible... dun think i can ever be a vegetarian... the funny thing is they gave a drumlet looking thing... which had an ice-cream stick in the middle as the 'bone' Hmm... this is something i don't understand... what's the point of being a vegetarian.. when you're eating a 'mock' MEAT? Unless it's for health... sometimes.. i see the irony... of eating mock pork, mock fish.... etc... the idea is still eating an animal ... made of flour?
Anyway, went for tuition and along the way saw a dead rat sqaushed on the road... Hmm... no comments about it... but... just no more inerts for me. For forensic scientist... i take my hats off you....

Compliments welcome...

2005-09-08T12:43:00.000+08:00

My friend Mervin complimented on my smile... Haha... compliments are ALWAYS welcome. Criticisms can wait...
So since he asked to be mentioned on my blog.... Thanks for your compliment! (What a cheapo way to get advertised!)

My personality test

2005-09-08T10:41:00.000+08:00

Did a test today since i was bored.... Realised that its the same as a friend whom i really disliked when we first got to know each other... we're both so extreme... but through the times of working together, joking and being there for each other... I came to appreciate his friendship (haha.. no no not daniel.. though i didn't like him that much initially too). Anyway, thanks for the friendship pal!

Your answers suggest you are a Big Thinker.
The four aspects that make up this personality type are

Summary of Big-Thinkers
Outspoken, ingenious and bored by routine
Think of themselves as talkative, curious and self-sufficient
May neglect the routine work required to make their plans successful

More about Big-Thinkers
Big Thinkers are always looking for the next big idea or opportunity. They’re adept at spotting trends and thinking on their feet. Big Thinkers like to jump in and find innovative solutions to complex problems and are good at developing strategies for the future.
In the UK, Big Thinkers are most likely to book a holiday at short notice, according to a nationwide survey.
Big Thinkers are usually curious, logical and energetic. This chatty group enjoys a good debate and asserting their opinions. Sometimes others may find the way they express their ideas too abrupt or challenging.
In situations where they can't use their talents or are unappreciated, Big Thinkers may be rude, critical of others or rebellious. Under extreme stress, Big Thinkers can become preoccupied with unimportant details and lose sight of the 'big picture'.
Big Thinkers may ignore important details in their plans and overlook the impact their ideas have on the people around them.

Big-Thinker Careers
The entrepreneurial spirit of the Big Thinkers often leads them to seek new challenges; this is often more important to them than working in a particular field or a specific career.
It's important to remember that no survey can predict personality type with 100 percent accuracy. Experts say that we should use personality type to better understand ourselves and others, but shouldn't feel restricted by our results.

Outing with my best gal pal...

2005-09-07T11:03:00.000+08:00

Anyway went out with my galfriend recently... did some relationship analysis with her and for her... So... quite fun..
We went shopping and all.. hmm... we went to this eating place opposite walas... can't remember the name and had a little chit chat there.... we attempted to take some pictures.. OURSELVES.... haha.. she did the first one i did the second one... how professional.. haha... no lah we just wanted to prove that we can do something better or just as good as the other... how ego..
Then we went to cold storage.. she needed to buy some food for her beloved.. while i just felt like having chocolates.. anyway, we went to the seafood corner.. check out what i found? :P Cool huh... but i will die cooking it... it's ALIVE... yikes... oh well... it's good that there were dead prawns around...
That's NOT a typical girls' day out.... it should be more exciting.. just that that day we were lazy and all.. and plus we just wanted to chill... Anyway, she's my best pal.. :D Been thru loads of ups and downs with her... yet the irony is we don't usually talk or meet up... But we know we are best pals. :D And we have no problems of getting to know other friends and spending time with them. Oh well, that's my best pal.. love her so much! :P

What do i look for in a lover..

2005-09-07T00:04:00.000+08:00

What do i look for in a lover? I start to ponder one day as i sit down and wonder about my exes, my suitors and my partner...
And these are the things that attract me:

1. Religion
I do not dislike any religion. but i love my religion. And i want to be with someone whom i can grow with spiritually, and grow 'intimate' with in this aspect.
Life's short, religion isn't just the only thing that makes a person spiritual, but it is one of the things that makes life more meaningful. I am grateful that through my life, my religion has carried me through my ups and downs and made me who i am and shaped my beliefs. I can be a product of the world's advances, but i thank God for making me realise the simpler things in life are the hardest to achieve and yet the most fulfilling.

2. Age
This don't matter. Be it 4 years older, same age or even a decade older, i don't mind as long as we can communicate. But no more will i date anyone younger. Yes i've tried that before... but it's not what i want i guess. I prefer to be 'taken care' of rather than being a mother to someone...

3. Looks
It's not everything. But it's a bonus!!!! Well, at least u can get a higher chance of having better looking kids right??? But i've had my share of not so cute lovers too... but they've won me over...
4. Intelligence
I tell you.. this is a must... no don't get me wrong, i am no genius and i don't expect my lover to be einstein. But i want someone who makes me stand in awe with the amount of wisdom and knowledge they have. Sigh... find that such a turn on.
I want someone to teach me things not to tell me what to do, no by being with him i can learn so much. I want a guy who is in control because of that knowledge and intellect. Heart melt.... :) Just being able to grow intellectually, to be smitten intellectually,that's just so attractive. Now that's wow....

5. Money
One guy asked me before if my future husband has no more money, what will i do. I just told him that i will stand by the guy. He asked me why and i told him because on my wedding day i've made a vow that for richer or poorer, in good times and bad, in sickness and health, for better or for worse i will be his till death do us part. And i hope to fulfill this. But honestly, money is not a must but that's not to say i am attracted to a beggar now. Let's just say if i know that the guy is trying within all his means to provide for me, i'm touched and i appreciate it.

Well, remember i told you about the Chinese indon who is after me. Honestly, he made me think what kind of guy i am after and if maybe there are better choices there. In fact he does fulfill some of the things i look for in a guy. but i guess daniel has won him in one factor that he doesn't. Daniel shares the same religion with me and he manages to grow spiritually with me, while fulfilling the other factors, which so far no guy can. Perfect isn't it? :D

The grass isn't always green on the other side...

2005-08-24T00:03:00.000+08:00

Haven't been blogging for quite some time... geez...
Hmm.. a lot of things have been happening.. just lazy to reflect and write.
The main thing is that off late, i was pursued by an Indon Chinese... he's quite old (late 30s), a muslim, kinda cute, busy man but i am sure kinda rich... But that's not the point. Anyway, i've just turned him down completely today and i think he's moving on to other sweet young things.
But anyway, I was flattered by the attention given... and i thought why did i turn him down.. it's not the age, not the ethnicity, maybe the religion cuz that could complicate things, but most of all, i think i'm happy with my boyfriend now....
Don't get me wrong, i am not the kind of person who would stop looking at other guys and check people out because i am attached, but even if i do, i don't see a need to do anything more than that.
My boyfriend may not be the best person in the whole wide world, but he gives me his best. Which though it can be below what i expect at times, i think it's good enough for me.
The chinese indon was a good catch too... but i'm contented with what i have. ;)
Cheers

Sexual Intimacy

2005-08-18T00:33:00.000+08:00

Hmm... I guess when people read the title a lot of u must be thinking some 'extra-curricular activity' you 'enjoy' with whoever or whatever. But i've learnt that sometimes sexual intimacy is not that.
Don't get me wrong, not that i practice such act... but one friend told me that intimacy helps in the relationship. Now that got me thinking, religion sure doesn't condone sexual intimacy prior to marriage. So where does this lead to? Does it mean anyone who tries to be religious will not be able to be closer with their partners on a different level?
Then i found out. When sexual intimacy is mentioned, it's not just physical stuff, but calling your partner in the middle of ur work, making effort to meet your partner, doing lovely surprises for him or her is a part of sexual intimacy. And these acts bond the couple in a special way. Take for example, people with best friends, do you need to be on the bed with them to know them 'inside out'? I don't think so... :)
Chew on it.

My trip to Bintan

2005-08-11T22:03:00.000+08:00

My trip to Bintan Asmara Spas... last tuesday to wednesday... How nice... It was fun... there are more pictures but nothing spectacular... Had a great time relaxing.. though i was expecting more... but it's okay.. a good getaway from Singapore. Nice.

I had the soup... it was chilled.. haha got rejected immediately... and i realised other people rejected it too.. had it changed to tom yam... Nothing spectacular.. but at least it's warm. :)

He's coming back tomorrow... hmm.. somehow i wished there's more time to be alone... :) Not that i don't miss him.. but i won't mind more free time alone...

And i am all alone...

2005-07-28T23:37:00.000+08:00

Sigh... He was supposed to fly to Amsterdam tomorrow... but he just found out today that his flight was tonight... which means i am all alone.. :( Oh well... good and bad... bad cuz i kinda miss him and all but at least i get to chill with my friends and all... :P Well, he left the car with me... but will let my dad use it... so anyway... as i was saying... that's the good part...
I took some pictures of the both of us today just before he left... We didn't do much. He just came to see me and we had dinner together so we were snapping away at the hawker center... :P Think the uncles and aunties there thought that we were mad..
Oh well.. I will miss him... Just hope his journey will be safe...

Who am i dating....

2005-07-25T19:03:00.000+08:00

For those of you wondering who i am dating... Comments? :)

What did we do...

2005-07-25T16:03:00.000+08:00

Yes yes.. he bought the ring.. but haven't seen it... and all.. he didn't even hint to me anything about the details.. so can't comment on it.... boring... But then again... he's really not that dumb to tell me ALL the details... hahaha...
i went watch Fantastic 4 on sat... midnight show... amazing... Quite funny lah... though i would watch an earlier movie in future... was so sleepy.. :P Hmm.. but it's nice so go watch it if u haven't..
Well, we did go check out some wedding bands here and there... so far we saw 2 that we both didn't mind... but they basically all look the same.. it's just.. how did people find inspiration getting it???? The branding of it i guess.. but who knows where's it from... we went to cartier, d'meyson, tiara (which we agreed on 1 pair which came up to $573 for 2), je'taime, flower, larry... we went to the others like goldheart and lee hwa last week... so... we basically saw all... unless anyone has any suggestions????
Going to help out in an Engaged Encounter weekend next month... 12-14 Aug... this could be good.. cuz then both of us can discuss about our relationship... we went for our retreat last year... but we can review it this year... :) Which is good.. cuz it forces us to concentrate on each other.. and we also have a time of prayer... Something which i need to refocus on...

Make me a servant,
Humble and meek
Lord, let me lift up
Those who are weak
And may the prayer of my heart always be
Make me a servant..
Make me a servant... Today...
Amen.

Gossip Gossip Gossip

2005-07-23T04:42:00.000+08:00

Thanks to one of my colleagues who said that i am a boring person and i just talk about work... Here's for her...
A personal update on what is happening on my other aspects in life...
Hmm... okok... daniel has just ended his reservice... and he's going back to bathe, change and rest.... and SHOPPING... hahaha... shop what many will ask... :P Something to do with 4Cs!!! Still clueless? Here's the hint:
1. Clarity
2. Cut
3. Carats
4. Colour.....
Hahaha... yes yes he's going to Diamond industries to get something... :P Hehehe... so now i am looking forward to my proposal.. yay!!!! IT's not that i am desperate or what... but it's so cool to be proposed to.. hahaha... LUCKILY I AM NOT A GUY... I brought him to the shop last sunday hinting what i like and what i don't... well, since i knew he was going to get it... might as well, get something that i like... haha... but jokes aside... marriage is really a heavy responsibility... that's why i aim to be a faithful wife and loving mother, more than a successful psychologist or teacher... cuz i think nowadays, the roles that are most important in our lives have been downplayed by our society... which can be quite sad... And i think it's easier to be a better teacher than a better mother or wife.... Chew on it...
Anyway, those who are planning to propose, don't say i don't help you... Diamond Industries is having a sale... 70% sale.. which means a 10k ring will cost you $3k now.. :D So... good luck!